why,why,why!!!!!!!

Whoo hooo weekend off after 3 full busy shifts. 153 days and have had urges but triangle broken so not succumbed
Cheryl xxx

Great news on your new HB lol, something you would not have contemplated about 153 days ago.

It just shows how far you have now come with not succumbing to those stupid urges,

Be very proud Cheryl, for all your hard work on making the right choices, it can only get better as you continue to abstain and maintain, (maybe another new HB and HKs thrown in too next month lol) HDs indeed.

Proud of you.

Sxxxxxxxx

Whoop whoop HB been purchased 😉
Good to hear you're keeping on and reaping the benefits of abstinence! Look how much your life has changed :-)))))
Happy for you is not the world - PROUD OF YOU is the one 🙂

Keep it up and see ya soon (we will bloody make it lol)

S x

154 days
My week has been busy with work nights and days so am hibernating in my bed still this morning. Last Friday I went out for a meal with friends we were all close to my bestie who passed away. I have not laughed so much in months and not been out for over a year. On the way home the car died and for once I wasn't panicking as have cash for the bus journeys. My boiler is also dead and am saving for a new one. So no hot water or heat. In days gone by one of these incidents would be enough to send me gambling but I haven't. Then yesterday my OH's cousin whom he hasn't seen for 30+ years GIFTED him £1000 to buy a new car so we went looking. Have seen 2 we like but need to test drive and, knowing us, look some more!!! This act of generosity made me cry and was totally out of the blue.
I have my new bra and have HB's.
Life without gambling is good but it doesn't stop things going wrong but it now means I face difficulties head on and find a solution instead of hiding in a bingo site making them worse.
Money is still tight but I can deal with that
Enjoy your Sunday
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Great post Cheryl. Life is full of challenges & the only way they are solved is with direct action. Good on you

Dan x

Fantastic POSITIVE post my friend, you sure are coming on slowly and surely now, reaping the gifts that recovery gifts you,

Tackling problems and difficulties that do come our way without hiding behind the gambling addiction, is one if the most important positives as we keep moving OAU.HDs are there, we just have to keep making that right choice.

So very proud of you, (hope you get a good reliable strong car) I have got my new phone today (paid for by my lovely OH) not up and running yet till SIM card arrives in post, but I will tell you what Cheryl, recovery has gifted me to be more patient, and that truly is a great gift in itself lol.

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Managed to get a great car just £1000 being delivered Friday. 7 seater so great for the family and the new babba. Even now thinking forward to a holiday to France next year for the 6 of us. So true Suzanne that we become more patient and happy to wait for things.
Well off to sort out ready for a 12hr shift tomorrow
Cheryl xxx

Reading your posts tonight it's just the same for me im 6 days without gambling after failing yet again the feeling of self loathe is so bad I feel I'll but trying to stay positive even though my fears hurt so much. Made some payments on my credit cards and so far not withdrawn but totally skint and 2 weeks before pay day sick inside I feel....so please don't think your alone one day at a time for us

Hi Cheryl.

Just accidentally flagged a post on your diary as abusive! Stupid phone!!! Sorry just in case you get a comment from gamcare!

Just reading your diary again - not a great day but not giving up 🙂

Day 158
tired and cold hope I am not coming down with the lurgy! !!
My triangle is strong but am sad to see NT has relapsed but am sure, from reading his posts,
he will jump back up and try again.
Have a good day
Cheryl xxx

An amazing 158 days Cheryl, proud of you.

Hope you aren't getting the lurgy lol, still can't shift mind.

Keep strong And keep going OAU

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Hey Cheryl,

Very well done for such an inspiring journey you share with all of us! Am over the moon for you!..keep making the right choice, keep winning my dear friend 🙂

I am in all weekend, cakes and coffee will be served as always 😉
See ya later!

Sandra x

10 days feel pleased but along way to go not sure why but everything goes against you keep getting knocks

Day 160
Life seems much more simple and easier to deal with at present. I pinky promise I won't get complacent. Have the new car now so that helps. Even still have cash in my purse and 10 days to payday.
Not even thought once about gambling and that's wonderful for me. Letters, demands and threatening messages still arrive but I can deal so much more effectively with these now without turning to a gaming site.
The unconditional support from people I now consider friends is such a great spur towards continuing my recovery. Well another 12hr shift tomorrow so off to sleep
Nite nite
Cheryl xxx

Hi Auntie Cheryl, lol.

Thanks for your message, I will finish the course and of course no alcohol lol.HD.

160 days and no gambling thoughts at this time, now is the time to up your resolve and tighten it even more, that addiction will still be lurking quietly in the background waiting for its chance.

Well done my friend on your amazing gamble free days keep strong positive and keep going OAU.

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