why,why,why!!!!!!!

Well done Cheryl!!

Keep them days mounting up, it is possible..just keep wanting it more than self destruction, freedom will slot itself in the right places.

hugs
Sandra xx

Ty all for your posts Suzanne, ODAAT and Sandra.
Been so busy at work only just remembered it was day 200 lol.
Back in tomorrow so am off to dreamland.
Take care
Cheryl xxx

Hey Cheryl,

201 in the bag 🙂 way to go!
Please take it easy with work, i know we have to spend long time in there but never forget to look after most important person - yourself! Sleep, eat, rest - repeat 🙂

Thank you for your support..I'm still standing lol

Hugs
S x

Day 203
Am at a low at present and need a kick up the jacksie!
The after shocks of gambling are always there and constantly remind me of what an utter mess I have got myself into.
Am meant to be on leave this week but have picked up overtime in the hope that the extra cash will help, but for the present situation it won't and I have no one else to blame except me.
Take care
Cheryl xxx

Hi
Cheryl

Is there anything you can do to improve the present situation that is troubling you?
If there is get on with it!!
If there isnt stop drowning yourself in the negativety of the situation!

Jacksie kicked 🙂

Dan x

Cheryl i wasnt judging you. I was trying to encourage you to take the bull by the horns so to speak. I apologise if what i said offended as that was not intended.

Hi Cheryl,

That's why you are in recovery my friend, acknowledging good and bad in the process. I cannot take your pain away, only you can do that, and please correct me if I'm wrong, but every time you look back you take the "negative" on the chin and looking for the way to turn it to positive. One and really main one is - you are in recovery and doing your d**n hardest to keep making the right choice and make "amends" with your past. Let it be taking some overtime at work on, this is hard to dedicate your earned time off for more hours but it will bring more peace to you afterwards. All this is very slow process and just look at us, we want it all here and now huh...that will never happen, the more work we put in, the bigger benefits we aknowledge afterwards.
Have you got someone to talk to right now, maybe a listening ear could take at least a tiny bit of worries away from your mind.

Most importantly - you're doing it and riding these storms out..please keep holding on, this shall pass and sun will come out again!
It is ok to feel the way you do now, don't punish yourself for feeling low...meet this feeling head on and let it take it's course by slowly dissapearing in the distance again.

Here if you need me

S x

We can talk if you want 🙂
here and now if ya like, i can send my phone number.

Hi C,

Just read your post, keep pushing through my friend, when it's gets tough, just to slowly push through is enough, we can't change the damage we have done by gambling, I know it's hard, on us and our OHs,

You have my phone number and email, if you want to speak, am on hol but always here for you, and walking along side with you.

Take care (((((((CHERYL))))))))

Suzanne xxxx

Hi C,

Just read your post, keep pushing through my friend, when it's gets tough, just to slowly push through is enough, we can't change the damage we have done by gambling, I know it's hard, on us and our OHs,

You have my phone number and email, if you want to speak, am on hol but always here for you, and walking along side with you.

Take care (((((((CHERYL))))))))

Suzanne xxxx

Hi Cheryl,

How are you feeling recently? Keep pushing through dear soldier, you are a lot stronger in every aspect in your life!

Keep staying safe, there is always sun after the storm, let in your life

S x

Contemplation has been my world this week, plus weighing up options, so no time to gamble! Oh and then those 3 overtime nights.
If I gambled it would not help anything and would seriously compound my position at present.
Although I have written I wanted OH to leave previously, now it has happened it seems weird that I am dwelling on the good times ( although they do make me smile )
This addiction has finally taken the last thing from me and the gambling was a large reason for him going as he hated never having money cos he had to buy more food etc!!!
To be honest I don't miss the arguments, although the house is quiet.
Have to continue to be strong for all around me, but in fact I really want to curl up and hide in my duvet. A bit like the aftermath of a night of gambling and the inevitable losses.
Back to normal shifts tomorrow and that willbe hard as have not told anyone at work, although I could keep it to myself but think it would be advantageous to tell my boss.
Take care
Cheryl xx

Hi Brutus, I was very unhappy in my marriage and filed for divorce. Did stay on friendly terms with ex and its so weird how we focus only on the good memories but we have to remember why we made our decisions. I think because we spent 24/7 with these partners it is pretty certain we are going to miss certain times but I am so much happier without all the stress and arguments. Yet I admit occasionally I dwell on those better memories but then I remind myself of what my OH was really like and consider myself lucky to have my life back. Curl up in your duvet for a while as I think we all need recovery time but just look forward and its never easy at first but I would never go back and you will have a better future, it just takes a little time and a bit of tlc to ourselves. Take care Mary x

Hi C,

So sorry to read about your split up, I know what we say and what actually happens, are 2 different things, just take one day at a time with this too, whatever the weather, it will get better in time, I have been through 2 divorces, it is life changing, but whether you get back together or not, the change has happened and can only be for the better.

Keep strong at this time, and a good idea to tell work, all support will help at this time.

Very proud of you for coming sooo far, your new life is now, whatever is round the corner, Grab all support, and take new opportunities and choices that will come your way now, by the horns and go for it.

(((((((HUGS)))))))

Sxxxxxx

Sorry to hear about your split Cheryl

Keep strong and remember you're always here for support

tri