why,why,why!!!!!!!

Hi Cheryl,

Support as always - unconditional! ..please keep looking after yourself...now is the time where you need to make right decisions for yourself and i am more than sure you will...never forget about most important person - YOU.
Be kind to her, keep believing...life will start unfolding in front of you once again, embrace those changes..chin up girl!

S x

Day 216
Another sad day but will recover in time.
No gambling and no intentions to either
Take care
Cheryl xx

Hello Cheryl,

Thank you for dropping by and sorry to hear about poor cat :-(....i have two! I'm more than happy to give one "mischievous" one away 🙂 ..he won't do his deeds on the bed sheets,that's for sure 😉

Ok...don't think that was funny stuff...believe me or not, I'm serious so just give us a shout if you need companion to fill those quiet minutes 😀

You do still hurt which is understandable. Every separation is tough to go through. Been over 4yrs since i split up with my ex ( the one huh)..and believe me or not the b****d (lol) still on my mind uptil now.

You are deffo stronger that you been before and ya know what they say - things happens for the reason! Yes..and usually for the better.

Stay strong, stay positive and keep putting yourself first. I will indeed see you at work after next week...coffee and cakes on me ☺

Catch ya anytime you ready, look after yourself

S x

Hey Cheryl, sorry to hear you are so low 🙁 Call me a coward but I have avoided posting because I know nothing about your relationship but I can't not drop by & offer my condolences for your cat! Just because they are poorly before they go doesn't make us miss our angels any less! Pets become part of the family & even those of us who don't understand animals & have hearts of concrete find it hard to say goodbye! I wish I knew some words to take away even a fraction of your pain but only time has that strength!

Know that we are here, thinking of you as you keep fighting the demons - ODAAT

Hi Cheryl. Just dropped by to send hugs (xxx)

Mary x

Hi Cheryl, so sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved cat, my thoughts are with you x

Hi C,

Thanks for your support as always 🙂 I hope you are feeling better in yourself as the days move on, you have been through the mill and back.

Stay strong and positive my friend OAU

Sxxxxxxxx

Day 222
Doing fine, no gambling and no intentions of doing so.
Life goes on and plenty of overtime at work so busy, busy, busy is the name of the game.
Told those I need to tell otherwise keeping to myself at present.
Wishing everyone a strong, good and gamble free weekend
Cheryl xxx

Hi C,

223 days and keeping strong, proud of you Hun,

Sxxxxxxxx

Day 226
I soooooo want to gamble today, I won't and I haven't but I really, really want to.
If anyone reads this and thinks I am being negative, self obsessed or mournful, in truth I don't care what you think.
I am lonely and so need my friend right now. I find myself having mind conversations and answering myself.
I want to lose myself for a bit but don't do drugs or drink much so this is my reason to want to gamble.
I have my triangle tightly in place and won't give in but I feel I am losing the plot somewhat.
I know it will get better and just have to ride the waves right know.
My OH won't pay secured loan so as money is so tight I am considering selling up and renting. I don't want to make a rash decision so am giving it til the end of August. I have no heating (not really a problem!) no hot water as boiler has been capped off and no shower so not sure house is saleable at present anyway.
One lovely thing is I attended daughters midwife visit and heard the baby's heartbeat which brought a tear to my eye
Well enough of this must not make you good people gst glum
Bye for now, not sure when I will be back
Cheryl x

Cheryl, this is why you have a diary, to offload when it hurts like this! Don't worry about making us glum! It's little wonder you are thinking about your 'old friend' but never forget why you parted company! I don't think it's a negative post @ all, it's an honest post & despite your pain, you are not going to seek solace in something that will make the hurt worse! You also have your head held high enough not to be making any rash decisions so actually it's as far from negative as it can be!

Concentrate on what that tiny little sound represents & keep pushing forwards!

You are right, they will pass! Until then, keep riding those waves - ODAAT

Keep strong Cheryl, that little so called friend, would be in a matter of minutes/ days your worst enemy again,

Keep posting and keep in touch.

(((((((HUGS))))))

Sxxxxxxxx

Hi and ty ODAAT and Suzanne
Actually the friend I was referring to was my best friend who passed away last October suddenly aged 56. We talked everything through me helping her and her helping me.
ODAAT you have a lovely heart and a wonderful gift with words and Suzanne you have always been here for me which is such a help right now
Take care
Cheryl xxx

D'oh...I'm an r*e! I really should consult my strawberry blond friend more often! What a terrible loss for you losing a soul mate like that 🙁 Not that it will help but I am sure she would be very proud of how you are coping without her!

It will sound crazy but I am proud! Keep surfing Cheryl - ODAAT

Me too C, I did not read between the lines, dippy blonde again lol.

Of course you miss your bestie, especially when you are fighting through vulnerable times.

I hope your roller coaster ride has slowed down a bit, so you can recharge your batteries,

Take care, and keep very safe,

Sxxxxxxxxxx