why,why,why!!!!!!!

So are you C, and don't you forget that,

Sxxxxxxxxxx x

Hi Cher,

Thanks for your post and well wishes. Hope all is well with yourself and you are winning the fight one day at a time

Stay strong, stay safe

S x

Day 16
Mindset is more positive and I will not gamble today
Cheryl xxx

Hi C,

Thanks for dropping by, and it really is good to see you back in a positive mindset,

Keep thinking about the harm that gambling can do, just like drugs,etc, think danger when it comes to mind, and then do what you do when you see danger ahead, avoid, run, escape from it lol,

What a lovely paradox to escape FROM gambling instead of escaping INTO it, How positive is that my friend.

Sxxxxxxx

She's back! 🙂

You are strong and amazing! One day at a time. Not giving up on giving up xx

Hi Cher,

Thanks for your post! Good to hear you're moving on in ur journey little step at a time..that's all what matters..keep pushing forwards, it will get better!

Believe in urself and give yourself some credit for pushing through dark storms ☺

Take care, stay safe

S x

Day 23
Now on 2 weeks leave as daughters baby due. Need to stay focused and strong as payday end of the week.
Feel calmer and hopefully in a better place mentally to continue forward.
Have a good weekend
Cheryl xxx

Hi Granma to be lol

Good to see you in a calmer place again, keep strong my friend, you will be very busy soon :))) with a new grandchild around.lol.

Take care and stay SAS for you and yours.

Sxxxxxxxx

Thanks for your post Granma to be lol,

Take care and make the most of your time off :)))))

Sxxxxxxxxxx

Day 26
Nearly 1 month clean. This addiction squeezes the life out of life and chews you up and spits you out.
Still cannot truly get my head around why I let it take a hold of me.
Feeling better now, but as usual life has a way of pulling the rug from under us so will stay vigilant and focused.
Start new job in under a month and must not let myself down.
Have booked in for some counselling and restarted my meds.
I want the old Cheryl back in whatever form it may be and move forward not keep looking back.
Am also going to look into some form of local face to face meetings, but may well chicken out after 1 session as have not completely recognised the enormity of my problem , a bit like an alcoholic not admitting they have a REAL problem.
Take care Cheryl xxx

So good to see you're feeling better and straight back to gamble free. Nearly a month again already 🙂

I found an app which is good for anxiety called SAM, may help. I'm coming to terms with my anxiety again, something I thought I had 'solved' years ago. But clearly it's one of the reasons I was gambling.

The new job will be great. It'll give you another focus as well as becoming a granny. So much to look forward to and put all of your energy in to.

Take care and stay strong 🙂 x

Hey,

Remember to be kind to you, C, you know when in recovery, stuff falls into place :))))

Sxxxxxxxx

brutus123C wrote: Day 26 Nearly 1 month clean. This addiction squeezes the life out of life and chews you up and spits you out. Still cannot truly get my head around why I let it take a hold of me. Feeling better now, but as usual life has a way of pulling the rug from under us so will stay vigilant and focused. Start new job in under a month and must not let myself down. Have booked in for some counselling and restarted my meds. I want the old Cheryl back in whatever form it may be and move forward not keep looking back. Am also going to look into some form of local face to face meetings, but may well chicken out after 1 session as have not completely recognised the enormity of my problem , a bit like an alcoholic not admitting they have a REAL problem. Take care Cheryl xxx

How is the real Cheryl today??? Missing you girlfriend!!!! ((((Tri))))

Day 35
Still clean

Well done C,

Have you become a granny yet :))))

Suzanne xxx