Hi,
I started a recovery diary in 2011. At that time my marriage was in trouble, debt was spiraling out of control and I saw no exit to the evil disease that is being a CG.
I then started a recovery diary. Little by little, things improved. Day by day the horrible instincts that were in me subsided.
However it wasn't without loss. My wife and I are desperate for children, and we had three miscarriages in the recovery period. Debt was not far from £25k and, I slipped, after we lost little Liam. The demons re activated and I'm ashamed that on one night, I blew £100 online. May not seem a lot, but the succumbing to temptation totally floored me.
We lost a third child afterwards, and the temptation was unbearable. However, something just clicked. The debt was reducing, my hopes were increased, and especially as we thought we couldn't get pregnant after seven years of trying, I thought that is enough, but we got pregnant again.
We now have no debt, a baby that is 12 weeks, and a glorious future to look forward to. The first few weeks are almost impossible, but with a bit of steel, determination, and guile, you can kick this blooming thing to the curb.
I continue to have urges, I'm sure they will never leave, but for anyone who is currently in the dark times where I was in January 2011, there is light.
Make your own luck, never give up.
thankyou for sharing your story. I am on day 3 and i will not gamble
flo345 wrote:
thankyou for sharing your story. I am on day 3 and i will not gamble
Hi Flo,
Great first three days, it is important at this time of your recovery to make every day count. Start a recovery diary, give yourself a plan to reward yourself with treats when you pass a milestone. When I did it I rewarded my wife and I with a holiday after six months, but after a week maybe say you can have a guilty pleasure like a KFC (that's mine lol).
Great start, keep going, and if you start a diary I will support you.
Make your own luck. Xxxx
Recovery is possible eh 🙂
I was drawn here having noticed your footprints over the forum lately & just read your post with bated breath! I am so happy that you were finally blessed after losing so many little Angels! Congratulations to both of you on your new arrival 🙂
A massive congratulations on your recovery 'so far' & I thank you for coming back to prove that this is a fight worth fighting for life - ODAAT
Hi guys,
Love that quote "my footprints all over the place", believe me I'm not trying to be condescending but I thought that if I can beat it, jeez anyone can.
If you read my diary I was in bother. Serious trouble 4 years ago. If I hadn't changed, I probably wouldn't be here and neither would our little un.
It CAN be done, and I will try my hardest to help anyone who wants the help.
Make you're own luck....
Thanks for dropping by - hope your enjoying your new family 🙂 Its hard but rewarding a lot like being a parent 🙂
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