Hi
I use to question what was a Recovery program.
In time I invested much time in going to recovery meetings.
I got to understand that by stopping gambling did not make me happy.
I got to understand that by gambling was just the symptoms that I was a emotionally vulnerable child who was not healed.
The addictions and obsessions just indicated my escaping in my fears.
I lied because I feared being honest.
I lied because I was filled with lots of pains and fears.
In the recovery meetings I got honest with myself.
In the recovery meetings I gave healthy therapies.
I gave up talking about my addictions and money lost.
I got to understand that over time I got to understand what my emotional triggers were.
My emotional triggers were my pains not being healed.
My emotional triggers were my fears I could not face or reduce.
My emotional triggers were my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations that did not go my way.
My emotional triggers were my loneliness due to my fears of emotional intimacy.
My emotional triggers were my boredom due to the fact I did not fulfil my needs my wants or my goals.
The recovery meetings were going to help me exchange my unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.
The recovery meetings were going to help me open up to therapies and become comfortable with emotional intimacy.
The recovery meetings were going to help me humble myself to be an equal to all people in the meetings.
The recovery meetings were going to help me help my self to love and respect my self.
The recovery meetings were going to help me become the healthiest person I can be today.
The longer I was in the recovery program the moree tested I was going to be.
Healing Love and Peace to everyone.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
This explains me as a Person. I too used Gambling to escape from childhood pain.It never works escapism is the symptom of something deeper, we just carry the pain and lack of Love and self worth we never had, most addiction stem from some sort of sadness. Thanks so much for the Post one of the best I've seen written on here
Thank you for your comments.
It was healthy for me to relate to other like minded people.
Emotional intimacy helps heal our hurt inner child.
Healing LOve and Peace to everyone.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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