Hi
It was one of the hardest things to do walking in to my first recovery meeting.
I was a non religious person yet over time I became a much healthier spiritual person.
Recovery was all about being honest, attending as many meetings as I need, abstaining from unhealthy habits, giving therapies, reducing and facing my fears, understanding my emotional triggers, following my conscience, filling my needs, filling my wants and filling my goals.
In time I would understand that pain and trauma in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand.
The I got to understand that recovery for me means healing my pains.
In time I would heal the hurt inner child in me and live a life without fears.
As my fears reduced my trust grew, and in time being fearless and giving therapies I would open up to some very healthy emotional intimacy and relationships would flourish.
I could only love others once I loved myself.
I could only respect others once I respected myself.
My emotional triggers for me my were pains I could not heal, another emotional trigger were my were fears I could not face and reduce, another emotional trigger were my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I could reduce, another emotional trigger were my fears of emotional intimacy and feeling alone and disconnected from family and friend's, another emotional trigger for me was boredom because I could feel productive and I was not able to commit to my needs my wants and in time set goals for me to achieve.
Recovery was about identifying unhealthy habits and exchanging them in to healthy habits.
Was I a victim in my life, yes for sure.
How can I stop being the victim, by being able to speak up for myself setting boundaries from a place of peace.
I am not able to change unhealthy people in to healthy people that is their choice.
Yet by setting boundaries they will understand that if they continue being unhealthy you will not have contact with them.
Often when talking about our past pains people think it is about blaming, not so healing our pains is all up to us.
Talking about past is the path to healing the hurt inner child in us.
In time after healing our emotional age and our physical age gap will reduce.
And in time our hurt inner child will come out to play as never before.
Emotional intimacy plays a big part in our healing process.
Healing Love and Peace to everyone.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
Posted : 19th November 2024 9:00 am
