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It was one of the hardest things to do walking in to my first recovery meeting.
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I was a non religious person yet over time I became a much healthier spiritual person.
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Recovery was all about being honest, attending as many meetings as I need, abstaining from unhealthy habits, giving therapies, reducing and facing my fears, understanding my emotional triggers, following my conscience, filling my needs, filling my wants and filling my goals.
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In time I would understand that pain and trauma in my life caused fears in me that I did not understand.
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The I got to understand that recovery for me means healing my pains.
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In time I would heal the hurt inner child in me and live a life without fears.
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As my fears reduced my trust grew, and in time being fearless and giving therapies I would open up to some very healthy emotional intimacy and relationships would flourish.
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I could only love others once I loved myself.
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I could only respect others once I respected myself.
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My emotional triggers for me my were pains I could not heal, another emotional trigger were my were fears I could not face and reduce, another emotional trigger were my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I could reduce, another emotional trigger were my fears of emotional intimacy and feeling alone and disconnected from family and friend's, another emotional trigger for me was boredom because I could feel productive and I was not able to commit to my needs my wants and in time set goals for me to achieve.
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Recovery was about identifying unhealthy habits and exchanging them in to healthy habits.
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Was I a victim in my life, yes for sure.
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How can I stop being the victim, by being able to speak up for myself setting boundaries from a place of peace.Â
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I am not able to change unhealthy people in to healthy people that is their choice.Â
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Yet by setting boundaries they will understand that if they continue being unhealthy you will not have contact with them.
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Often when talking about our past pains people think it is about blaming, not so healing our pains is all up to us.
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Talking about past is the path to healing the hurt inner child in us.
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In time after healing our emotional age and our physical age gap will reduce.
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And in time our hurt inner child will come out to play as never before.
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Emotional intimacy plays a big part in our healing process.
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Healing Love and Peace to everyone.
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Dave L
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AKA Dave of Beckenham
Posted : 19th November 2024 9:00 am