The addictions and obsessions just indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable and that I had certain emotional triggers.

Hi

I am a non religious person.

Today I am a much healthier spirtual person in having a healthy conscience today.

I like many people did not think that I would ever stop gambling as I felt it controlled my life.

I felt by walking in to the recovery program it was going to control my life.

The recovery program was never going to control my life, it was going to help me make much healthier choices.

The healthy nurturing and encouraging people in the recovery program was going to help me help my self.

The healthy nurturing and encouraging people in the recovery program was going to help me get more honest with my self.

The healthy nurturing and encouraging people in the recovery program was going to help me reduce my fears and become less vulnerable and less volatile.

There are many words used in the wording of recovery bad good right wrong and for me this did not help me face my self.

To understand that in recovery I would make much healthier choices, exchanging my unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.

Once I gave up my focus from talking about gambling money lost or making excuses.

To talk about how I am feeling today.

To talk about how much feeling of fear affected me today. 

To talk about how much feeling of frustrations affected me today.

So once I abstain from addiction or obsessions I get more focused on my self and my well being.

So once I abstain from addiction or obsessions then that means I am not causing my self or others any pain today.

So once I abstain this is the time that I start to heal my pains and reduce my fears.

In recovery I would open up and expose more of my self emotionally.

In therapy I would reduce my fears and increase my trust but woud also get in tomore intimacy which aids our healings from the past.

Secrets are fear based.

My lies and secrets are fear based.

I am a non religious person and over time understood that deep down I am a very healthy person.

My conscience caused me lots of pains when I went against my own healthy conscience.

Once emotional intimacy starts in the meetings the next step is healthy emotional intimacy with family and friends.

I understand that I can heal my pains.

I understand that I am unable to heal other peoples pains.

Only once I have empathy for my hurt inner child could I have empathy for others.

Being consumed by my addictions and obsessions indicated that I was not able to listen to my own healthy conscience.

What is important is that healthy emotional intimacy plays a big part of my hurt inner child not living in fear any more and also aids in the healing of our pains.

In my life I understood that we have unhealthy reactions to people places adn things.

In my life I understood that I moved from unhealthy reactions to healthy interactions.

Healthy interactions are part of healthy intimacy and much healthier relationships with my self and other people.

My long term fears disabled me in so many ways.

My long term fears disabled me from having fulll healthy intimacy with my self and other people.

My long term fears disabled me from fulfilling my needs my wants and my goals.

The more time and effort I put in to my recovery the sooner I found a much healthier life.

Healing Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham