Each time I went back to gambling what was my last emotional trigger pain fear frustrations loneliness or boredom, and can I learn to not react in such unhealthy ways again.

Hi

Walking in to the recovery  program I did not understand that I was reacting in such unhealthy ways.

Being in recovery program I would get to understand what was my last emotional trigger were pain fear frustrations loneliness or boredom, and can I learn to not react in such unhealthy ways again.

Walking in to the recovery  program I did not understand that I was not able to heal my pains.

Walking in to the recovery  program I did not understand that I was filled with so many fears I could not even be honest with my self.

I do understand now that nearly every time I gambled I Made things much worse in my life and more painful.

I do understand that pains cause fears in me.

In time as I became much healthier I made the choice to interact in healthy ways.

To deal with situations in a much healthier way.

My conscience is spirtual based and indicates that deep down I am a healthy person.

By going to meetings my fears reduced  in me.

By me having less fears I was abale to have a much healthier life.

I am a non religious person yet I have become a much healthier spirtual person.

Money was never going to heal my pains.

Money was never going to reduce my fears.

Money was never going to help me have intimacy with my self and with other people.

Procrastination stunted my growth and my healing.

Living in fear and Procrastinating was not healthy for me.

The recovery program is not about right wrong good or bad, recovery is about healing my hurt inner child and living a much healthy life with out fear.

Healing love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

AKA Dave of Beckenham