There are so many positives in my world right now, yet I seem hell bent on destroying everything through gambling.
I need to search deeper to understand what takes me to this dark place.
An unhealthy relationship, work load/stress, boredom (lack of purpose), greed, trying to make finances better the fast (and impossible) way, a real lack of willpower or respect around money since childhood.
I need to stop trying to con myself with lies and half truths...no deep diving needed - ITS ALL OF THE ABOVE.
Today is the day I take full responsibility for my actions, and take the first honest and measured steps to a more stable and normal future.
I stand here before myself and promise to stop this hurtful madness once and for all.
I am in more pain, deep inside than I ever allow myself to acknowledge, and the heartache it causes me cuts sharp at my soul.
I now commit to myself that this is over.
Fin.
Good luck Skyblue your life will become so much better without gambling. Accept all the help available self exclusion GA meetings and counselling. I think the more support one has the greater the chance of beating our addiction. These things together with your determination will im sure make your recovery easier.Best wishes and remember take it 1 day at a time.
Kind Regards
AL
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