Hi
Once I took my recovery seriosly I would understand my emotional triggers.
I got to understand my emotional triggers, pains I could not heal, fears I could not face, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, loneliness, and boredom.
I got to understand my anger was an unhealthy reaction to pains I could not heal, fears I could not face, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.
Before I took my recovery seriously I did not value my self, sadly the only time I felt succesful was by getting some thing for nothing, by getting some thing cheap, or by winning money gambling.
Before I my recovery I felt like a loner, I felt threatened being asked questions, even with step four I felt threatened being asked to be honest and accountable.
I use to fear being honest, I use to fear opening up my self to people.
Once I understood my recovery was about healing my pains long before my addictions and obsessions.
Only once I was able to abstain from gambling and stop causing my self more pains could the pains of my past be healed.
The consequences of investing time and effort in to my recovery pains get healed, my fears reduce, my anger is very rare, my patience and tolerence has improved towards myself.
Every unhealthy habit I xchange in to healthy habits my life gets simpler and less stressful.
Love and peace to everyone.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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