Why

Humans like having problems to solve if humans are unfulfilled ir if everything is too perfect they will find a way too cause a problem 

The most classic example of this in modern culture is suburban housing estates where on the surface everything is seemingly perfect yet look behind the curtain and theres affairs / abuse / b******g / gambling / drinking / neglect / arguments and so on 

Everyone has their own vices 

Gambling is a particularly destructive one but its still just mostly nonsense behaviour constructed by ones lack of self fulfilment and desperate need to escape to some fantasy reality 

Do some soul searching and you will probably discover you don't actually want to be gambling its just a coping mechanism for something else 

Hi

In my time in my recovery I understood that alcohol,drugs,gambling,smoking,binge eating disorders ,etc were just the symptoms that people had certain emotional triggers.

Being self abusive and self neglectful indicated pains and traumas that were not healed.

Being educationally intelligent does not mean we have emotional resolves in our lives

Emotional scars take time to heal.

The hurt inner child takes time to heal.

It was important for to get to understand what my emotional triggers were.

The buzz I use to feel while in action was fear and adrenaline based.

Emotional triggers for me my were pains I could not heal, an emotional trigger were my were fears I could not face and reduce, an emotional trigger were my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I could reduce, an emotional trigger were my fears of emotional intimacy and feeling a loner and disconnected, an emotional trigger for me was boredom because I could feel productive and I was not able to commit to my needs my wants and in time set goals for me to achieve.

I hope this helps you.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham