I've been with my fiancГ© for nearly 4 years. It was very early in our relationship that I found out about his gambling. It took an ultimatum from me to initially get him to attend GA meetings and face up to the debts he'd accumulated over the years. Things we're looking positive and for about a year or so after. I have supported him financially to allow him to get back on his feet. I always knew that an addiction wasn't something that could be cured and that there would be relapses at times but I loved him enough to stand by him, despite the doubts of friends and family who didn't understand. Last year we got engaged. Since around that time the urge to attend meetings has diminished and the gambling has been getting progressively worse. He hasn't saved a penny for our wedding and uses it as an excuse for his gambling saying that he feels under pressure. I've stood by him long enough to know that this is just an excuse, but the feeling of resentment and betrayal hurt now more than ever. When we argue he says that all I do is moan and give him a hard time. I'm at my whits end! Our wedding is still a year away and as much as I love the person he is underneath it all is that enough? Please help! I feel I have no one I can talk to who understands what I'm feeling like and I can't confide in friends or family as I know they will worry or pass judgement. Do I want this life forever? I consider myself to be quite a strong person but sometimes I wish he was the strong one, the one I could rely on.
Addiction can be a battle but that's why its so important that I keep working the tools of recovery - like meetings, counselling, chat etc. Thats the most worrying thing, that he's using it as an excuse. As for yourself, sure you understand that Gamcare offers counselling to the partners of the CG's too and there's Gam-anon, the family and friends side of GA
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