Total mug

Still carry mr Ps bank cards with me, so I always know where everything is. He doent even know the pins.

Had a moment in the bank recently when they were insisting that I had a bank card with contactless on it, which I dont want, "are you insane, do you not realise how much i try to keep things secure and then you want to do away with any protection on my bank card", they went on so much that in the end i did get cross and firmly said that my husband is a compulsive gambler and that they hadnt noticed hom take thousands out of my account over the last few months so perhaps they should be leaving the security to someone who had learned it the hard way. They are soooooooo nice to me in that bank now.

Things ARE calm once you take control of yourself and your future and make your own mind up. The terrifying bit is when the gambler is trying to control.

Hi again

really struggling now. Checked his credit report-2 credit card applications- he tells me he was declined but who knows? He knows I check everything and yet this acts as no deterrent so I feel that my reaction to what the latest discovery may be, isn't strong enough. It's like I'm letting him get away with it. I do get upset and angry but he just sits there so I'm the only one it's effecting. My girls are usually around so it's not like I can scream and shout. He doesn't care how much he hurts me. He isn't going to stop.

Hi katiecola

Long time no chat and im sad to see your still in this position, I really feel for you and wish j could help in some way. I've been in my own councilling for a while and even had some joint sessions with my husband as our marriage has been a total train wreck but things are on the up. ...or so I thought...He's let me down again.

Is this going to happen for the rest of our lives?? I'm trying to better myself and try so hard for him to then tear me down to square one again and it hurts so much. I had even began to trust him again...what a mug I am!

Anyways aside from that all this mess how have you been?? I have missed coming on here but I've been really down and haven't been able to bring myself to look on here, almost as if I've been avoiding it.

Gem x

Ah hi Gem

its good to hear from you - just wish you were in a better place. I just can't carry on as I am. I am coping most of the time but since the recent developments it's been a real struggle. I don't wanna find myself still on here moaning about my life for ever! And that's how I feel it will go because he's not gonna stop so I need to get out. Like you say it can't just go round and round for ever. We deserve better. Hate to think of what my future holds but I know it will be hell if he carries on and I do nothing. What is your situation now? Has he had a relapse? X