New diary

My last plan failed because I didn't exclude when i said I would, but I have finally done it today, so as bad as I feel about my loss I also feel a sense of relief that the one place I keep being drawn back to is no longer an option. The women in there were really good about it, said they're glad I've done it as they've seen the amount I've been loosing. 

14 days gamble free and since self excluding I haven't really thought about it much at all, hoping it stays this easy but I don't expect it will, have to keep my guard up

Day 18 and honestly had no urges to gamble at all, I'm so annoyed that I didn't just exclude straight away, I would have saved almost 3 grand and a lot of stress and sleepless nights. Think a part of me wanted to just take a break and be able to go back in a few months, taking a break never really works, for me it's all or nothing, get paid next week and I'm not completely skint yet, looking forward to keeping my full wage, going to be making lots of plans for the summer!

Day 30, I've finally made it a full month gamble free! I really feel confident that this is it now, onwards and upwards, I've barely even thought of gambling lately that's why I haven't been on here much. I've paid off my overdraft and had it removed, now want to try and build up some savings again and focus on getting healthy.

41 days gamble free, feels amazing! In a really good place at the minute, just enjoying life without all the stress, guilt and worry that gambling brings, being able to enjoy nights out with friends and buying lots more healthy food when I'm shopping are just a couple of things that are making my life so much better. I'm feeling confident at the moment but still good to come here and re read my diary just to remind myself how awful life is once gambling creeps back in, I'll be keeping my guard up for a long time yet.

49 days gamble free! Life's still good but have been thinking of gambling a lot the last few days, I've been enjoying myself maybe a bit too much, really been over spending then got my mot and need quite a bit of work doing, panicking now about being able to afford it and of course my natural reaction to needing money is wanting to gamble, my addict mind trying to convince me I could just go and win some money. I know how it would end so I've managed to stop myself but it's been hard.