2 weeks clean

I am a 38 year old mum of 2 I have a loving husband.i had a problem with gambling 9 years ago when my marriage was having problems due to terrible neighbours and my husband working nightshirts I used to send hours online on my own playing roulette and bingo slots we ended up breaking up and I started my new clean life paying cash for everything and a small house on my own we only had one daughter at that time.away from the madness and £70,000 of debt I soon realised I still loved my husband and our marriage could be salvaged if we left the gambling madness behind (he also gambled )life was good and we ended up having another daughter until my husband became I'll and his mother died of cancer his stress became bad and he had terrible mood swings and depression he also tightened his grip on my checking up on me and suspicious even though I have never given his reason to think like that.i had the old feelings of wanting to gamble and escaping real life that was 2 years ago and struggled ever since

I am a 38 year old mum of 2 I have a loving husband.i had a problem with gambling 9 years ago when my marriage was having problems due to terrible neighbours and my husband working nightshirts I used to send hours online on my own playing roulette and bingo slots we ended up breaking up and I started my new clean life paying cash for everything and a small house on my own we only had one daughter at that time.away from the madness and £70,000 of debt I soon realised I still loved my husband and our marriage could be salvaged if we left the gambling madness behind (he also gambled )life was good and we ended up having another daughter until my husband became I'll and his mother died of cancer his stress became bad and he had terrible mood swings and depression he also tightened his grip on my checking up on me and suspicious even though I have never given his reason to think like that.i had the old feelings of wanting to gamble and escaping real life that was 2 years ago and struggled ever since

I can't tell my husband the financial mess I've got into I've lied taken money from his account, borrowed money from good friends lying that I needed money for the kids or my car,I've taken money from our isa that should be to buy a home I feel like s**m I can't tell him as I know it will be the last straw,I owe my parents money and have several payday loans I just have to buckle down and repay the debt I want my own home for my kids and I want my family to be proud I'm determined I can do this!

Let me know if you are in the same position we can help each other!let's do this and beat this terrible addiction x

Very well done on 2 weeks free, that's a great start.

Have you a diary on here, to me, that is the best place to post and get support, because people tend to share more and more as they progress and people don't just talk about their gambling, but all sorts really.

Good luck.

Thanks Steve will do

Keep up the good work. I no life may seem tough right now with lots of skeletons in the closet however those who believe in you will support you. A problem shared is a problem halved.

Each day you never gamble means a happier person and a happier family.

You can and will do it.

Thank you wise words

Hi Dm and welcome to the forum , apologies for being a bit late to the party and a big well done your 15 day's .

Thank you for your kind post it's always great to get feedback , You're prob not going to like what I'm going to say next but I'd have to mirror Deano's advice to tell your OH , as tough as it is to do and I know because I did it to my family a couple of days after coming here , it will make the job of recovery so much easier if you have the backing of family behind you , gambling loves and thrives on secrecy and holding back from those we love lets it keep it's grip on you , I know you feel that you can go this alone and keep the debt's secret but how long for ? , recovery can and will be a real struggle at times and having someone there thats aware of what your going through or having them there to talk to when it sometimes it gets a bit tough , can make all the difference .

Ultimately the decision is yours and I'm not going to judge you one jot whichever way you go , it's your recovery and you handle it however you see fit .

If you want a bit of inspiration , then maybe take a look at Loxxies diary , it's full of positivity and marks her journey against slots over the last 150 day's , with a few giggles thrown in for good measure .

Stopping gambling only needs to be as hard as you let it be , it's initially about putting a bit of space between you and your last bet , you then start to get a bit of clarity back once the gambling fog lifts , after that, well , you just keep building on your foundation , little steps and one day at a time and ev eryday that you choose to say " NO " is a great day .

This place litterally saved my life , I'm coming up for 10 months gamble free pretty soon and it's down to a handfull of things , the wonderfull support and advice I recieved when I came here and the continued support , the support of my wonderfull family , making sure I had all the blocks in place to stop me gambling , a bit of willpower but the biggest thing was that " I wanted to stop gambling , much more than I wanted my next bet " .

Life's great again for me and it will be for you if you let it , so sieze your chance for much better future !

I'll talk to you again soon Dizzymiss !

Best wishes for now and welcome to recovery .

Alan

Thanks Alan some fab advise one thing I haven't mentioned is my hubby comes from a gambling background his parents own race horses and he too is not impartial to some horse bets and occasionally the slots he seems in control and isn't secretive about it although I have convinced him we will never have any money if he gambles (how paronising and hypocritical is that)but I know it's important to my recovery to not see the bright lights and spinning wheels if I am going to get better,I'm jealous of people who are in control because I can't be although I am going to be in control of my recovery weldone on yours it's truly amazing dizzy