4 Days in and struggling

 

I have read your post , I'm 12 days into my abstinence . and half of my work is around the Licensing industry , in Bars clubs etc,  temptation is rife . but   [ check my initial first post ] I admitted to myself , i had a problem , i have contacted people who are going to provide help , and aim fighting my impulses with anger [ so whenever my alter ego , tries to make me think of having a flutter , stick £20 in the fruit machine in the pub , which nearly happened last night ] my anger kicks in i said to myself " you f**** dare " and  last night i ordered food instead . Take all bar , taxi money out of your pockets , get an apple wallet on your phone . NO cash point card , OK THEY can do cash back but ,not everywhere does that . and keep fighting . it does become easier , i went over a year once . its like drying out ,the first week is the hardest , and the next pay day . REMEMBER DO NOT  carry cash or make access easy to it . and be disgusted with yourself for having any urges aliken it to visiting a local house of ill repute , tbh bookies are  really . 

keep going ......