Hi, I have been reading these forums for a few months and finally decided to join.
I am addicted to online gambling, mostly slots.
I like to play bingo too but i get bored as it doesn't give me an instant "result" like a click of a slot button.
I have won thousands and all my friends and family think i am very lucky...
The truth is, i probably just win my money back and i am hiding all my bank statements and i feel sick when i log into my internet banking and see all the transactions to gambling sites.
I first gambled in 2010 online bingo and won 500 my first go! That was it, i was hooked.
Now i have limits on all my accounts, even though i have self- excluded from most and left myself with a few favourites, i still spend too much every week even though i have 10 deposit limits a week (on each site!)
I get very carried away, especially when i feel down in the dumps. If i run out of sites to play on i will find a way to open another!
I have children and when i win a big amount i will spend the majority of it on the kids, and desperately shop online looking for stuff to spend my money on, so that i don't feel the guilt for having blown a fortune to win it.
It is my way of justifying how much i gamble!
This week, i have totally lost track of how much i have won and re-deposited. As some sites take the money for deposits and then the transaction seems to drop back in to my account before being taken out again a few days later, for a day it looks like i have all the money i spent, back in my account and then i spend it on gambling again... This causes my account to go in to red, even if i have no over draft. I know when i am spending the money that it will take me in to debt but i don't care, i always think i will win it back.
I really enjoy playing the free daily games and i have won real money from them ('s a month some times!) So it is very tempting to keep those types of accounts open, The minimum i can set is a 10 week limit on those accounts. I really need to take the leap and close them all, Staying off them and maybe one day will see a bank statement that doesn't have any gaming transactions on them!
I feel like such a failure. I never thought i would get addicted! My dad was a gambler.
I used to be the one telling him off for spending the little money he had left!
Now it is me who is desperately needing to stop!
I have the same problem with slots at the Bingo Club I attend. The machines are conveniently placed where everyone has to pass and the flashing lights are an attraction. I say to myself that I can afford the losses and have just about ended a divorces so feel a bit sad. However I also know that I am a fool for parting with this cash all the time.I used to spend loads online but have closed all my accounts and can resist that temptation ok. I am now about to try leaving my debit card at home when I go and beat the temptation. Wish me luck!
I think you should try keep out of the bingo hall altogether and therefore completely avoid the machine?? I would try that.
I have done really well, today i haven't gambled at all. I can keep away from the sites no problem it is just that when i start spinning a slot i can't seem to stop! It is addictive for me to just keep hitting spin. I feel much stronger today. I do however feel a bit sick looking at the transactions from the other day on to the different gaming sites! I am in the red but i have winning from previous days that makes up for it. I am quitting now before my problem gets much more out of control! Good Luck!
Hi
I often wonder how many women actually have problems gambling and dont want to admit they need help.
I always think of gambling as bloke thing.
But like you im addicted to on line slots and bingo.
It seems easier at home with my Pjs on and a brew not thinking about the money im wasting.
Hope we can support each other as i feel like im lost at the moment trying to wade out of a sea of cr** iv made myself get in.
Good luck x
Hi, good to hear from you!
Yeah i think loads of women are but won't admit it.
I think its easy when it is online, all electronic. If that money i wasted was actually to touch and feel in my purse, i wouldn't dare gamble it, but 'cos it is only digits on a screen, it seems much easier to part with as it is not "real" to me. Obviously i Know it is real... Hopefully you can understand where i am coming from?
There has been many a time where i have actively paid bills then ran straight down the road to withdraw money from the ATM so i am not tempted to gamble it away!
I always find a way to gamble though, my partner or mum's accounts as they allow me the odd 10 or 10 deposits as long as i transfer the cash to their account and share the winnings. They both have no idea how out of control my gambling became.
I have been very strong and haven't gambled since i wrote the original post. Well that is a little lie, I bought 2 scratch cards at the shop,, but i am not addicted to those, I could go weeks before i bought another.
I have been trying to tell myself, my partner is out working and tons of other folks are too and i could easily gamble away winnings of 300+ and not give it a second thought , when people have to go out and earn that over a week or more! Then i think of all the days out it could buy. All the clothes i could buy and treats fir my kids.
I have to beat this and stay strong.
Good luck. you will need to tell me how you are getting on!
Hi I've just joined I am exactly the same as you!.. started with bingo then the slots. I am in such a mess!... I'm waiting for counselling.now. I look at my statements and die inside. I have won thousands and then gambled it all away again.slots are so addictive. I've withdrawn cash.. applied for a new bank card so i can't play anymore. I feel so sick because i always re do my details.. thinking i'll just do it ononesite. I have deposit limits too but then i willchange them.. oh it's such a mess. I truly want to kick this and hope with the hep on here I can xx
Hi Liz, I actually read your own thread first and it struck a chord with me so i replied to you! THen saw you had already posted on my thread! lol!
I do that too, apply for new bank cards in hope i won't enter the details on those sites but the urge always got the better of me!
Self- exclude yourself from as many as you can think of. I did that on monday!
I am pretty sure there are some i have missed but i still feel really strong and determined right now! Take Care!
hi hun im in exactly the same position and have set limits, self excuded, installed k9 (but got round it) yet still find sites to open new accounts with even when I know I have wagering to meet before I can claim winnings I still do it!!
my husband has no idea but knows we are spending money unusually quickly so its only a matter of time. .... im on day one so we should try to keep each other motivated!!! just remember that you can never win because you wint stop. win today and DO NOT play 🙂 xx
Hi Zally, I still haven't gambled since i joined on 4th aug!
Very pleased. Just spent 100 on kids clothes and feel great that i did that rather than blow it on a site.
This is it for me i think!
I have had a terrible week with family, Mum got discharged from hospital (she's had a stroke & is now disabled) so this week was stressful but i realise i have to be there for Mum and not let gambling get the better of me when i have been stressed. I also have an alcoholic brother threatening suicide. It has been tough to stay clear of the gambling but i am so proud that i have, especially under these circumstances!
Yeah, you and me have the same problems, it will be great to hear how you cope. Good Luck!
hello girl21
lets hope your gambling hasn't got to the addictive side yet and you can stop
same as your alcoholic brother gambling takes many a life too
keep strong
tri
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