Can't seem to stop!!!

Feel really bad.

You've had all the advice you need...Go back over your old threads & take it!

Long & short of it is get to GA & no money, no gamble! No-one can do this for you...You have to do it yourself! Addiction destroys us from the inside out...You can manage it but not with willpower!

I know,lucky I pay ALL my bills the day I get paid, if the money is in cash it doesn't bother me as I like online slots lf I have cash just buy clothes,food,make up ect,did phoneed gamcare unfortunately I don't live near any meetings ,my partner does know about my addiction and is sympathetic but doesn't understand. I know can do this, done it before 🙂 .

T

If you wanted to attend meetings more than you want to gamble, you'd go.

Your call.

CW

How far away is you nearest meeting liggypops? Mine is 12 miles which isn't too bad and we have members that travel upwards of 60 miles.

hi Liggypops

Sorry to hear your feeling down. I have recently joined the forum too, and decided to take the GA Zoom counselling and start a diary. Cant really offer too much advise as I am in a very similar position. In and out of gambling over the years, but this time determined to stop - not because I have run out of money, but I can see the damage it is doing to my family.

My wife needs me, and my children are very young.

There is always a trigger to make me start gambling, I do not think about it 24/7 but starting to become aware of the trigger and need to find a replacement to gambling. Reading the forums and writing a diary helps to distract me from what I want to do, and then as the 'need' to gamble subsides, the red mist slowly fades and life commences.

All I can suggest at the moment is that you find that distraction, because what always starts as a harmless flutter ends in despair.

Listen to the advise being offered as these are people that have been through the paid and the recovery - and the fact they choose to come on here to help other deserves our consideration at least.

I am in this for the long haul

I live 50 miles away and don't have a car,in am not making excuses Cynical but it's just tad too far for me to go, thanks for all your support and advice, if it was 12 miles away I would go ,but I have to work as well and children, I have stopped before and I will do it again,I have just had a blip that's all.

Unfortunately the blips keep coming.

It's easy to say, but the only way to stop - is to stop!

If you can do it alone, great, if you keep blipping then it's time to ask for help.

Each to their own, but keep posting on here and let us know how you are doing. Other readers draw strength from success stories

Good luck

Thanks 2124ppc I know the only way to stop is to stop!!!!!I suppose the 2 months I did stop I got cockyl and bold enough to say I had it in the bag ,humble a bit more now I know it's not going to be that easy and one step at at a time is all I can do at the moment.

If the same old same old isn't working, serious rethinking might change things.

When he was out of town my husband did do a hundred mile round trip to get to a meeting although he said that he wouldn't like to have to travel that far each time. And I babysat. It would have been easy not to bother but you get out what you put in.

CW

I know what your saying and I do need a swift kick up the backside but can't afford 100 mile round trip and that's that.I am going to do this ,had a long hard think this week about a lot of things. Believe me if I could travel 50 miles I would but I have now given my partner control of ALL MONEY after bills are paid (if I have cash that is OK as anything other online slot doesn't interest me at all) so I am taking a different angle on my addiction and filling it with other things to do .

Last night was horrible for me,dream I was playing online slots ALL NIGHT,wow has my life got so sad that I can't dream of anything else.

The problem isn't the gambling. It's the addiction, it's the needing the fix or whatever it is that placing a bet gives you. The blockers help to buy you time but they don't address the underlying emotional issue? illness? of the addiction.

Is counselling an option - the full course, probing the discomfort? Otherwise, what will change for you long term to bring you into long term recovery and reclaim your life?

BW,

CW

Have spoken to a councillor on the phone and my partner is fully aware of my addiction, he has told point blank that we can't afford it, so far he has been very supportive and understanding but there will come a time when he might not be ,so mainly I am doing this for me ,i am doing it for us also.