cant stop

day 1 still

i am struggling

the thoughts of gambling keep going around in my mind.

my friend who gambles with me always lends me money its not her fault but she is an enabler.

I want to self exclude but im afriad ive been going to the same place for years and made friends there and when i cant deal with life that is where i go

i am afraid i cant beat this illness

please help me

Hi Moinka,

Stick to your guns, im also on Day 1 (again) my first day one ended up in yet another loss and even more debt. Please don't go back down that road.

Im now trying to think about i felt at my worst, after i deposited and lost that last lot of money, if i keep thinking about those feelings, i tell my self i don't want to feel like that again.

I've sat down now, gone over it all in my head, worked out a payment plan to repay my debts, so now im not only going to be counting down my gamble free days, but also looking forward to a debt free life.

You can do the same, we don't need gambling ruining our life anymore.

Good luck x

Dear MYlife

Thanks for posting on my diary

really nice that someone has responded

I went last night to the bingo and did not play the slots which is my biggest problem.

i played bingo though and walked out

i had a bit of strengh

i just feel so overwhemlemed with all the money ive lost and owe to creditors

i work long hours and get paid every week and and every week it all goes...how devasting.

hi!.. i'm new here ...and on day one xx