Can't take any more

I felt uneasy reading that. Stop and think !! You have a wife and a child and how selfish would that be to do ?

Find the balls to come clean. Your wife and child would much rather you alive than dead over a stupid habit that you can overcome

IF you put your mind to it

Been where you are many a time STOP AND THINK PLEASE

Also put some effort into stopping ! put restrictions in place. Please I beg you stop those dark thoughts now and man up and face what you have done. Only then will you start to feel clean inside

I reckon I would lose my family if I told them. It's not a question of man in up it a feeling of fear and being totally ashamed

I reckon I would lose my family if I told them. It's not a question of man in up it a feeling of fear and being totally ashamed

Then STOP now. Your family would rather you exist despite the shame you feel. Go to GA. Order a new card and get somone to scratch the 3 numbers on the back. Tell your dark secrets and read the people who have told those they love. Wish i had done that instead I lost the love of my life and for what ? A gamble high

Hi altrincham09,

Welcome to the forum, and well done for sharing your story.

To begin with, I’m glad that Gamcare is able to provide such platform like the forum for problem gamblers to be able to share their thoughts and feelings, and also to enable them have advice and support.

I’d like to make you aware that there’s a lot you can gain by giving yourself a chance to be helped. No amount of money is worth your life! Also, your family and friends will suffer more pain and sadness if you should carry your intention out. You can get help and support to manage your debts, and it’s possible for you to overcome your gambling problem if you follow the advice we offer. We are non-judgemental organisation, so try and push your idea of shame aside, and come to us for the help that you need. Gamcare will readily help and support you with advice on strategies to enable you stop gambling. We can also refer you to 12 sessions of free counselling, and nearest to where you live, if you think that would help you to stop gambling.

Meanwhile, I advise that you contact Samaritans on: 0845 790 9090 and let them know about your suicidal thoughts or, you go to A & E if you find your thoughts unbearable.

Your wife and child, and also family and friends would be proud of you for seeking help, and not taking out the easy option.

It’s very important that you inform your GP about your feelings of giving up. You can also contact our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133, in case you would like to speak 1 to 1 with any of our advisers. Our lines are open every day from 8.00am to midnight.

Stay safe,

Beatrice

Hi altrincham , just caught your post and wanted to let you know that I was right where you are now 11 months ago , so I know exactly how you feel right now .

Last september I sat in my daughters garden watching her having a great time with family and friends at her 30th birthday party , I was there but I wasn't if you understand what I'm saying .

Nobody had any idea I had a gambling problem or the debt I was in because of it , nor did they know that for the 2 weeks prior to that moment that I'd been searching the internet looking for a way to end it all .

I'm not sure what stopped me but thinking about my family that I'd leave behind and the heartache that they would go through was enough , what your talking about is " A permenant solution to a tempory problem " and simply put " it will get better , it has for me because I made the choice to come clean and tell all those that needed to know just what I'd done .

I can honestly say it was the hardest thing that I've ever had to do but compared with the alternative I was thinking about it was nothing , I sat and spoke at length about how long it had been going on and how I felt I had no one to turn to , everyone's reactions are different but once the initial shock is over with most on here have gone on to have the support of their family , ewhich is what you really need in order to halt this gambling addictiuon in it's tracks .

Gambling loves lies and deceit , so if we open up it can't be our dirty little secret anymore can it ? .

Once I'd opened up and found support on here everything got much better very quickly and 11 months on gamble free , I last week just gave my daughter away at her wedding .

So how things can change in a very short time ? , moneys money , it comes and it goes and over time any debt can be repaid , theres lots of advice on here if you need about sertting up repayment plans if you need so you don't have to suffer alone .

I hope this helps you along , to realise its not gthe end of the world you think it is .

Keep posting fella , talkings good :))

Thanks alan 135.