Hi my name is Joe I’m 18 from the uk I’ve been gambling since age 13 I managed to gamble at this early age due to my dad being a massive gambler he would allow me to play from time to time which now I look back I’ve realised how bad it was for him to allow a 13 year old to do that but I guess he wouldn’t of knew this would happen. One time he gave me 50 pounds to play on a online casino I ended up winning xxxx I was absolutely buzzing really happy as I was only 13 since it was my parents money I won it with they decided to take xxxx for them selfs and allowed me to keep xxx I felt like I was on top of the world I’ve chased this feeling over the past couple years massively. After this I wanted to gamble more regularly and I’d always be finding ways to gamble birthday money pocket money for a 13 year old this is disappointing. I’ve always told my self I haven’t had a issue but I’ve now came to the realisation I have a serious problem.
i try to gamble every single day i lose my whole pay check from time to time recently sold a motor bike I owned one I saved up for sold it and gambled every single penny of it on black jack and felt disgusted with my self. Last week I got up to xxxx playing black jack in a casino I told my self it’s time to cash out I went to the cashier desk seen there was a Que of around 5 people and decided I didn’t want to wait stupidly walked back to the black jack table and lost every penny in 5 minutes doing stupidly high bets because I thought this was my time for a really big win. Tonight when I’m writing this I went to the casino with 100 pounds got up to around xxxx lost it all went back and forward to the atm withdrawing about 5 different times I was in there for hours just going back and forward when I eventually lost every penny I had around a 1000. So Embarrassed to say I was calling up friends telling them I’d pay them back in two days if(they will be getting payed back) they lend me a couple hundred two of my friends agreed I borrowed 500 I went back to the black jack table done a hand for 250 and another one after that and lost it all in 2 minutes. I tried to call every one I could think of to get more money I was so desperate to gamble I sat down and stared at the wall and really deeped what I’d done in the moment I thought every thing would be okay and I’d win my next bet so on.Â
I really need help it’s getting worse and worse I really want to stop I banned my self from the casino tonight for 6 months and I’ve been on gam stop for about 1 month gam stop hasn’t really stopped me as I’ll find my way to make a bet through friends accounts the bookies exc.
I want to get rid of the problem early on in my life as it’s been 4 years of gambling but this particular year has been hell gambling wise I feel like I’ve wasted so much time doing it I’m so depressed after every lost it destroys my mental health before I was on gam stop I’d play black jack on my phone if I had the opportunity no matter where I was I could be out for dinner id walk off and play black jack in the smoking area on my phone. I could keep going on and on for ages about awful days nights I’ve had and depressive episodes I’ve had due to this awful habit I don’t even know why I do some times I gamble knowing fully well I’m going to lose it all. I used to think the idea of a gambling addiction was stupid and laugh about it but now I’m really in this dark place I can relate to the people I once laughed at thinking a gambling addiction was hardly anything. I tell my self I enjoy gambling but I really don’t I think it’s a cover up because I can’t even tell my self I hate doing it while I’m doing it. I hate my life due to this i really really hope I’ve got it in me to get this out of my life now as it’s ruining my relationships and General life any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you for reading.
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you are young and have your whole life ahead of you, from reading the recovery diaries on here You do have to want to stop really want it out of your life, which means no going back, no little flutters, this has to be forever. It sounds as though you do want out, so just put every block in place you can think of, trust in a family member or friend so you have someone to turn to, and use this community as every single one of us have been where you are now.
Once you understand you have an illness, you will start to understand why you think you are enjoying it while you are doing it, the addiction has complete control when you are active, you are not yourself and have no control. You have to take control now, you've got this, and please open up to someone, it may be scary but once its out in the open, it is another deterrent.Â
I’m exactly the same position but an older age.
I’ve gambled for 8 years now, and life has never been more depressing with every day getting worse.
I’m running off 0 energy as I end up doing, nighters most nights, to sit up and gamble on my phone.
I don’t realise how long I’ve been sat there gambling until night has turned to day and all my money has gone… I’ll also then start to lend money, giving people more false hopes on when they’ll get paid knowing that I’m just hoping to win it back…
I’ve banned myself with GameStop online, but friends let me use there accounts so a bit pointless.
I really am hating life so much because of gambling, and alls I still want to do is gamble every day with any money I can get hold of! How do I stop!
@ujed3ratop It is possible, I have been there for years and never thought it was something I would ever escape. You need help and support and you need to open up to any friends who help enable your addiction.
You have to want it, I have been gambling for 10 years, the last 6 were the wors, every free minute of everyday, I would be stuck in that trance, money has no meaning, friends family dont even cross your mind, because the addiction has you, but you can do it. I am 58 days gamble free today, and it is the best thing I ever did
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