It's been really hard to finally admit but enough is enough. I've been addicted to online poker for 6 years. Started out playing micro stakes and steadily worked my way up winning thousands in the process (most of which I never seen outside of my poker account). As I have been getting better at poker I have been getting progressively worse into my addiction and last night I lost £2,400. It was usually steady and I would win win win then lose it all over the period of around a month but recently I made the decision to increase the stakes and keep going up and it was never enough. I won so much but it was never enough, I never withdrew any of it just kept gambling till it was gone then deposit more. Last night was when I realised I finally need help, I won a lot in around 3hrs of playing but played for another 12hrs and ended up actually losing £2,400 which has ruined me. I have admitted it to my girlfriend and parents and will be getting myself blocked from gambling websites. I really can't go on like this anymore. I am financially ruined, I have been taking out loans when I lose all my wages and borrowed thousands more from family and friends. All because "i am good at this, look how much I've won, I will win big soon and I'll be out of the s**t for good" but in reality the bigger my winnings are only equates to even bigger losses and its time to do something about it. I hope I can leave this all behind me and get better because I can't get my head around how I've ended up in this situation. It has taken over my life, i just want my life back.
Pretty long winded but thanks if you made it this far.
All the best to all of you struggling with this evil addiction.
Dan
Hi, it's really positive that you have admitted you have a problem and seeking help. I signed up to gamcare 4 years ago and have only just started posting and taking this addiction seriously ,something has clicked, the urges are strong but I really do not want to gamble, I just remind myself.
The progressive increasing of bets I can relate to , seeking more of a thrill.
You don't have to live life as gambler, debts can be sorted.
Wish you all the best in your recovery mate.
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