Done it AGAIN!!!!

You say you're generally in control. That's not enough, because all it takes is an hour after a beer and you lose all the money in your account. Take it seriously now because gambling is a progressive problem that will only get worse. Take a look at K9 blocking software and give the password to someone close to you so you can't access the site when you're feeling weak, tired, bored.

I'm confident. I'm a controlled gambler. I blew 10k online in 1.5 hours

Sound like the same person?

K9 is free and available for immediate download. You can use a random letter/number combo or a barcode as the password. Why wait?

i couldn't have contradicted myself any more with those comments really could I? Have spoken to my brother who has seen first hand the destruction gambling can cause. I'm going to block myself from all form of online gambling and give the password to him. TODAY. I hope this is the end for me before I actually ruin everything. Ive just withdrawn the last £116 I had in one account which to be fair I was just about to put a load of football bets on with the mindset of "one last try". But I didn't and I know that's probably because I'm feeling so bad at the moment but if I can just keep reminding myself of this feeling then I hope I will pull through. No more gambling and I should be back to where I started in 5/6 months.

Again. Cheers for your comments and support.

do something with that £116 that will forever remind you of that change of heart. buy a picture, go for a meal, do something and use it as your memory of your last ever bet, a reference point

congrats of talking to your brother and on making that withdrawal. good choices.

Yes I will do. A new small tattoo maybe. I'm looking forward to 6 months time and being able to say I don't gamble. I hope it happens. As long as I don't find a way to gamble online I should be ok.

Yes I will do. A new small tattoo maybe. I'm looking forward to 6 months time and being able to say I don't gamble. I hope it happens. As long as I don't find a way to gamble online I should be ok.

Hi Grogstarr,

Glad to hear you have told your brother, hope you were completly honest with him. You will also get good support at GA meetings. My mindset was very similar to yours, I used to enjoy doing football and horse racing bets at the weekend, going watching games with my mates etc. Vast majority of teh time i could control my betting amounts so did not see it as a problem. When it went out of control I got counciling for it but convinced myself that I would be fine once I just stuck to doing my sports betting.

6 months later I hit rock bottom and only came clean to my partner once I had burdened myself with debt and bills were not being met. In other words I only came clean when I had run out of options, if I had got access to more money I would have kept going. My partner had every right to show me the door but she did not and we have a much better relationship now as she can see I am honestly tackiling my problem. She has full access to everything and all the lies and nonsense have stopped.

I hope you get help adn I also hope you can come clean to your partner soon. She deserves to be shown respect and while you think you are protecting her you are really just protecting yourself.

I wish you all the best with your recovery.

Hi grog. The thing you really need to remember is in 6 month time you wont be gamble free you may not of gambled for 6 months but its not the end. Its a life time battle unfortunately which in time will get easier. I know this as ive been a 40 year and tryed to stop on and off throughout that time but only recently since my 15k madness streak I got found out and was in a place I never want tobe again the hurt it caused my partner so now im over 100 days gf I have a allowance each week im no longer in control of finaces and im feeling great. But im not going to be fooled im cured because I am not it will only take that little demons voice and then im back to square 1. Good luck remember its a change for life you can never go back how ever small your bet.. red x

Thanks everyone for your advice and kind words. It's been a few days now and I didn't realise how much I was actually betting/checking results etc. I've actually got some work done today. However I feel this is going to be harder than I first anticipated . I have finally realised the depth of my addiction and I don't like it, I have enough vices as it is and this one has crept up on me without me realising. As I said I've had tendencies to go on gambling rampages blowing thousands in a matter of hours, and they are all I remember. But now I'm trying to stop it has shown me just how much time I was devoting to this ridiculous habit. I kind of don't know what to do with myself now I'm not continuously looking at my phone.

Cheers.

Well Grogstarr how are things at the minute?

I'm not sure whether I can just jump on a post and start commenting but I've literally no clue where to even start on here.

I know though if I don't talk about it now it's just going to get worse. I wouldn't say I'm in massive debt, I owe about £2000 but every single time I get paid I hate myself knowing I need to pay some of that money off all from my own stupid mistakes and to make it worse I still sit there and put money online e.g £600 last night. I'm finally at breaking point and need to get out of this rut. I don't want to spend my hard earned money on stupid sites anymore, but I also know that when I'm sat at home all day waiting for my mam to finish work or my partner too that I'm just so lonely and I always find myself back on the sites. I know I can't do it without venting though and could really do with the help from this forum. Is there any chat on here where I can just come on regularly when I'm feeling that I want to deposit just to talk? I'm not at the stage where I can face speaking to someone via webcam or my doctors because it's just too much pressure right now

Sian Louise go to bottom of new members page and there is a button says 'new topic '. Start your own thread and you will get more help. Chat is on in evenings, go to chat room and it tells you times.

Joe-90 wrote:

Hi Grogstarr,

Glad to hear you have told your brother, hope you were completly honest with him. You will also get good support at GA meetings. My mindset was very similar to yours, I used to enjoy doing football and horse racing bets at the weekend, going watching games with my mates etc. Vast majority of teh time i could control my betting amounts so did not see it as a problem. When it went out of control I got counciling for it but convinced myself that I would be fine once I just stuck to doing my sports betting.

6 months later I hit rock bottom and only came clean to my partner once I had burdened myself with debt and bills were not being met. In other words I only came clean when I had run out of options, if I had got access to more money I would have kept going. My partner had every right to show me the door but she did not and we have a much better relationship now as she can see I am honestly tackiling my problem. She has full access to everything and all the lies and nonsense have stopped.

I hope you get help adn I also hope you can come clean to your partner soon. She deserves to be shown respect and while you think you are protecting her you are really just protecting yourself.

I wish you all the best with your recovery.

Hi Grog - I've done the same with my partner and she has been equally as supportive. Have you considered giving your brother access to your accounts etc? I know you said its just a casual acca at the weekend (believe me, I used to say the same thing) but it really does increase to £20 accas, to the hundreds and upward. Nip this in the bud while your situation isn't as bad as most.

Hi everyone and thanks for asking how I'm doing Sam Crow.

I'm a bit disappointed to say that I have placed 2 bets since my original post the last being 1 week ago, only for a fiver(but we all know where that is going to lead). But if I'm honest I really haven't felt the urge to gamble as much as I thought I would. However I am still sick to the stomach thinking about the amount of money I blew and not actually had enough money to risk losing. But I now feel the real test is going to begin as I've just been paid quite a nice amount. And as I said in previous post once I've had a few beers that's when it tends to go horribly wrong for me.

I have half told my partner and she now has access to my bank accounts but not control so she can see every i going in and out, which I know will help as I do not want to let her down..

I have attended a few GA meetings which I found very helpful and quite informative.

Any way that's how it's going. Hope everyone is doing well.

Cheers, Grogstarr.