Emotionally and Physically drained

Hi 

I'm so sorry to read of your struggles, it's horrible how fast the ' chacing losses ' mindset takes hold, I've just had one of them weekends myself. 

That's what's lead me here, and to closing down my online accounts with casinos etc 

Do you have anyone you can talk, to, not online, that you trust, that could maybe help just to talk to??? 

Keep talking here. Possibly good to have somewhere just to write your thoughts 

Just think of this as rock bottom and you have to fix things from now. 

I'm in the same boat, just really try and get rid of every way you can be tempted to bet. I've set up gamban on my phone and it's brilliant. Blocks all gambling sites so I can't easily reach them. 

Put the debts to the back of your mind and concentrate on not making them worse, chip away at the debts weekly.

Sorry to hear about your position, I was the same today. I got as far as my local market square and I had the usual I'll just do £100 and if I lose I lose. £500 later it just takes the life out of you. I blocked myself on all the casinos, I banned my bank cards from online gambling but now I keep walking into my local bookmakers. It takes forever to make such a small profit and takes less than an hour to put it all back again. In the end you never win and even when you do it just leads to you going back. Cut the addiction out of your life and mean it! You need to really want to quit in order for any chance of you regaining your life back. It's easy to fixate on debts and use gambling as a shortcut to correcting things. But gambling never works and it's always a silly consideration. You'll need to come to arrangements with your debtors and explain you've been suffering from a horrendous gambling addiction. I'm sure they can come to some sort of reasonable payment arrangement. I've just had my first gambling counsellor session today. It went surprisingly well but that was after me blowing £500 that was supposed to go to buying a car. It's like the guy told me today don't fixate on the loss focus on what it is you need to do as to recover from the urges and gambling in general. Keep your chin up buddy you and I we will all get there. There's always better days and times ahead. 

Hi

The addictions and obsessions just indicated how emotionally vulnerable I use to be.

The addictions and obsessions were a way of me running away in my fears.