Failure over and over again

I understand what you are going through, I am new to this page as well. I would definitey say that you need to barr yourself from any online sites/casinos as your first step, and have your spouse put a blocker like K9 on your phone. If he’s not aware of your recent gambling, it will probably be best to tell him so he can try and help you fix it. You’re not mental, you just have an addiction like the rest of us here. Best wishes.

Hi Amanda

Thanks for getting in touch and welcome too, I have K9 on my phone and it used to be online but now it's amusements and bookies but I can't bring myself to giving bookies a photo of me to ban myself I would die if anyone I know found out I'm a compulsive gambler so vain and egotistic I know!! I need to do something like bin my bank cards or have limited access to money but then when we get card back how do we still stay stopped its crazy 🙁

I know it’s hard, I haven’t even told my family yet, out of pure shame, but you need to think about your well being over your pride. You will feel so much better knowing you can’t run to bookies anymore, so I highly suggest giving them your picture to barr yourself. I think maybe not having a card in general would be a good thing? Have your husband monitor your spending and only give you a certain amount of cash for specific items. It sucks, I know. I’m still trying to figure this all out, but I just read all of your posts and you definitely need to try something new or you’re just going to keep going back. ):

Hi all welcome to the site . I can say that you feel low now perhaps rock bottom ? If you carry on gambling then the floor is going to get a lot lower and your rock bottom will get deeper too. You say you have tried everything to stop and whilst I believe you believe that , from the outside looking in you haven’t . Why have you got access to money and also the time and opportunity to gamble ? Those are a must at this early stage . Discuss this with whoever is in your close circle . It’s back to baby steps but it’s a lot better than the alternative . Once you take the access to money away and throw in accountability for your actions , then that’s the first step . The next step is to tackle the mental side of your problem, finding suitable hobbies away from gambling , spending quality time with your family whilst not thinking or being affected by your illness . You can do this . You just need to believe and have the conviction to follow it through and become a non gambler . Good luck and keep posting here

Hi Amanda and fresh hope I also have joined the site the last couple of days still trying to figure where how to post , on weds eve after sitting at a slot machine for 8 hrs over £900 lost as I walked to my car I felt like driving to the nearest bridge , only the thought of the mess I would leave behind and my children even though adults I know would be devastated , after 30 years the last couple years have been the worse , somehow we have to stop having access to money and there is lots of good advice on this site , mentally we put our self's through hell , I hope we can support each other pink

Pink, I’m sorry to hear you had a bad day, I hope you’re feeling better since then. This site has helped me quite a bit since I found it, and I’m sure it will help you too. If you click the new member forums, there should be an option near the top for you to create your own post. (:

Hi pink so sorry to hear what you are going through and I can totally relate to every word you say, I have been to the depth of despair and my son and husband is stopping me from taking it too far. I am so glad we have this website and hopefulyk we can support each other to get recovery from this sickening illness, I hate it it controls my whole life and it's a mess, no more and I hope pink and Amanda we keep coming here and push each other to create a new happy life gambling free xx

Thanks Amanda and freshhope , so many of us it this awful position , we put our selves through it over and over again thinking we are finally getting somewhere stopping for a while , then bang the realisation we are penniless again , I can now feel the progression I'm more reckless than ever and have put myself in dangerous situations for eg a few weeks ago went to local seaside town 25 miles away in aft 500 in purse , 11pm all gone then realised no petrol to get home , had to thumb lift home thankfully got home safe and got bus next day back to car , I could have been attacked nobody knew where I was what a stupid thing to do I never thought I would get to this , how far this addiction can drag us down how much more can we take , we have to find inner strength to save our lifes or gambling will take every thing from us , this time no half measures I will fight , will put every block in place I have to or where will it end ! Pink

Hi Amanda..please stop thinking about the loss. The main thing is now you have stopped and will live a GF live! With the support from here you will get through this dark day! Raj

Sorry Pink! Can’t sleep..BF passed away..your life is very important.

Hi Amanda..it’s your post!

Raj, I’m not thinking about losses, but mistakes I’ve made along the way that I am going to have to face soon. ):

We all been there..stay strong and you will overcome these! -:)

Day two

Lots of temptations as feeling low i suffer from depression, need to keep going things will get better