hello I'm a 29 year old gambling addict. I live in India. I have lost a lot of money gambling. Im in debt and broke. And with Corona virus I'm out of work.
I am a failure in life. Im single jobless and right now living with my parents.
And over that have gambling addiction. I always had been a failure, thought maybe i will gamble and i will be good at this and show everyone that yeah im better than you. I earn so much more than you without working like you
Guess where that has lead me. Living with my parents, depressed single and in debt.
I have given up on happiness. There is no way I can possibly turn things around..
Sorry for the rant.
Hello Tyler,
Welcome to the forum. As this appears to be your first post, we have moved it from 'Debates and discussions' to this section for new members introductions.
As you mentioned that you are based in India, you might also be interested in this source of online support, which is used by people around the world:
https://www.gamblingtherapy.org/en/support
You describe how you feel depressed and see yourself as a failure. Hopefully using peer support here will provide you with some emotional support, but you might also like to talk with a doctor locally to you, if you believe you are suffering with depression.
Well done for expressing yourself here, please read the posts of our forum members in case you can find some hope and inspiration in them.
Take care,
Adam.
Hi Tyler,
These thoughts are common for compulsive gamblers. I use to want to constantly feel sorry for myself, tell myself I was a piece of **** and so on as in a perverse way it justified my constantly continuing to gamble recklessly as its what I deserved. It was not until that I went to my nearest GA meeting and started to open up and be totally honest with myself and others for the first time in my life that I could see there was a journey of recovery that could be taken. It's not an easy journey and the rewards take time and effort but they are real unlike the deluded world in my brain that I used to live in.
Help and support is out there, go seek it and work hard on your recovery and you will start the process of really improving your life. It can be done. Good luck.
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