Hello everyone,
On 28th October, my life changed forever. I said to myself as a problem gambler I’ll go win my £800 that I lost the previous day at the casino to no avail. At the end of the day, I lost all of my savings, (£4000) and applied for a loan of £7000 and lost half of it. I then proceed over up until today to fluctuate up and down that money gambling everyday. I lost all of the loan plus £2500 that I borrowed from friends to keep going. I currently have £6.35 all together. The positive is I started a new job as I lost this money in a season of being unemployed for two months. I am hurt everyday, I look at my computer screen at work everyday n reminisce bout the time I had that savings n how I thought it wasn’t enough to get a car. Now I’m almost 12k in debt, I duno how to feel. I sometimes sit and stare into distance thinking how can i have the worst addiction there could possibly be. It’s gulped my life up and I won’t be able to get a car for a year plus now. Luckily I live with my parents so rent isn’t much and my loan repayment are affordable with my salary. However, I’m truly devastated and feel like I never gave my self the chance. Everyday I wish I could go back so I can be happy at work. I think months need to go by yet I feel like days are passing me by so slow. I had plans for the year ahead like going holiday and stuff but I know it won’t happen. I never gave my self the chance and gutted bout it. I let everyone know and choose to stay at home and visit my girlfriend on my days off until I recover the money. I gambled for a month straight and this is what happens. I truly don’t believe I’ll be happy again yet I try n put on a brave face everyday knowing that I’m probably the only one in the room I’m in going through such a thing. I’m never gunna get a car and spending my 20s recovering from stupid mistakes was never my plan. I’m wasting my youth and my face is changing due to stress. I want to get a second job to recoup quicker but know I’ll have no time for anything and will be very miserable. I wish someone can help me!
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