Hi
I don't really know where to start or say, apart from that I wish I wasn't alive anymore.
I cant look myself in the mirror and can not tell my family that I live with what I am going through.
I have been gambling on and off since I was 16 - making it 20 years, but this year it got rock bottom. This year I gamblled everything away to the extent that if I didn't live with family, I would be homless right now.
So now I have reached rock bottom, I don't know how to reach to the top. I was always very bad at climbing mountains lol.
Please help 🙁
Hi.i signed up to this site today after finally admitting to myself ive got a real big problem 🙁 my story is under the thread a few down from this (crickets123) firstly well done on confessing and admitting to yourself.thats the first big step. Since reading many stories on here i decided to google more on gambling (i am adicted to the slot machines on bingo sites) please do me a favour and google THE TRUTH about online slots and gambling its a major eye opener. Tells you all about it and the big con it is. I cant believe how stupid ive been and the money ive gambled away. Someone on here told me to ACCEPT the money i lost cos i always chase losses resulting in even more losses and its a vicious circle. Sorry for the long reply but i just wanna try and help
Hi resay,
Welcome to the site and well-done for such a brave post. The good news is you have reached rock bottom so the only direction is up now. I say this with sincerity and as much as everything hurts and feels broken right now it really can't get any worse. I remember a year ago today hitting my rock bottom. I had the suicide cocktail ready on my desk it was all going to be over. A random call brought me to my senses and I was on the net line within seconds. I can't even remember the exact details of that conversation but having someone to listen and not judge me gave me a temporary relief that helped me make it through the night.
I am not going to lie to you and say things got better overnight but over time with the help from this site, a supportive counsellor and now GA a year later and things are getting clearer.
Life is full of relapses and set backs but out of every disaster or upset there is some positive. Seek that positive now and you can start to climb that mountain one day at a time.
Do not give up!!!
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