Just want to say Hi and welcome. I'm new here too, but I think it's a great place to come and share your thoughts and get help and advice.
I can really understand where you're coming from and I identify with a lot of your feelings. Like you, and many others on here, I've been round and around this block a number of times. I struggle with the lies and deceit too.
I'm too new to this to give you any great advice but I can give you a pat on the back for joining this forum.I'm finding having a recovery diary on here helpful. You've taken a great step forwards. Keep posting and reading x
Didn't mean to make you cry:) I think tears must be compulsory at the start because it's all I seem to have been doing too!
I've not used this forum before in my previous attempts to quit either. I'd come on and read posts and take advice and comfort from what I read, but this is my first time at posting. I wish I'd done it sooner!
Starting at virtually the same time, means that we'll reach the one year mark together. Let's focus on that x
Thanks for replying on my thread earlier, I have managed through using this forum to remain gamble free for 5 months this year hence why after a couple months of stupidity and more pain and suffering l am back on day 1 hoping to start a fresh. Instead of gambling money I have'nt got I'll keep looking in in here this evening whilst watching over my 2 daughters whilst the wife is at work. Usually the phone would be at my side on a certain slot game winning then losing. Breaking that cycle is my first task.
Hope you have a good evening.
Hi 11Suz, welcome to recovery 🙂
Sounds to me like all your futile attempts were done on your own merits? I tried & failed with this methods for many years (daily) & yet the minute I reached out & asked for help (albeit I only wanted to know how to control my gambling) I found recovery!
I'd be inclined to agree that the tears are compulsory, I think I cried/slept for 3 days straight @ the beginning of my journey (I'd go back & check but it's too painful to read what I had become)! I haven't done any real research on the subject but I've read a lot (& I mean, my new addiction, a lot) between these walls & the desire to lose is very common as we reach rock bottom! In essence it breaks the Time-Money-Location so we cannot gamble...This is what you need to do @ the start of this journey, get real strong barriers up! Exploring why you gamble through counselling (Gamcare offers this) or GA may be an option to consider & I would thoroughly recommend a recovery diary as a safe place to come when you need a distraction!
You don't sound crazy @ all, you sound just like me (well maybe a little bit nuts but don't take it personally)! We cannot win because we cannot stop but we can get 100% out by committing to recovery - ODAAT
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