Hello There!

Hi,

I wish you well on your recovery.

@oranje01

Thanks! Means alot to even get a reply 

@DJNuGGeT It isn't easy so I commend you for giving it a serious try. I started gambling in 2008 and racked up some serious debt over the space of a year. I managed to pay it off 12 months later and vowed never to be in that situation ever again. In 2018 I started gambling again and this time the debt was worse, however this time I noticed my behaviour was way out out character and traits like lying were becoming natural, my lying was so good I shocked myself and couldn't understand how I was always able to cover my tracks and remember the finest detail of all my lies. I had to draw the line after I stole money. I felt so bad I knew if I didn't stop I wouldn't be able to repair or salvage relationships with those important to me. I signed up for the full 5 years on GamStop and put all the blocks in place. I often think what kind of person I would have turned out to be had I not walked into that casino in 2018?..

@oranje01 im having difficulty recalling dates of when i started, or stopped, or when it got bad.

i have known for a good while however that i was being a dishonest person not only to myself but to everyone around me who i lied, cheated, stole from, tricked, manipulated, bribed the list of horrible words goes on but they have all been true and one point or another

and for 99% of that time noone had a clue why i was doing such things, i wouldnt even admit it to myself

but its time to face up to the fact that ive had a problem for a very very long time and i  never ever had any control over it no matter how much i lied to myself that i did

some people just cant handle gambling, it took me to be so close to the end to even see that i was one of those people

Posted by: @oranje01

I often think what kind of person I would have turned out to be had I not walked into that casino in 2018?

perhaps you would have been very different, perhaps we all would have but imagine if you had never come here or found any help at all...where would you be now?

Stay strong