I have to stop now.....again

So it’s 2.30pm on Friday and my mind is telling me to put a bet on. “It’s only for entertainment and you could win a couple of hundred”.....temptation is really setting in but I need to stay strong. I keep logging in to Gam care and reading the stories for inspiration and to help me resist this burning urge to go to the bookies. I must stay strong and get through today. Please God give me the strength to give this up.

Hi G100,

No such thing as a poor bookie....there is always only one winner in our cases.

The beginning is always the toughest but dont let it beat you.

Keep going

Damo

Thanks Damo, i’ve Been here before and know that this is the toughest part. If I can get through today and the weekend then I will be pretty confident that I can stop for good. I did think that last time though and after 6 months GF I started again and can’t even remember why. I think I thought i’d Beat it and I could just put an accumulator on and go back to being normal like my mates. I’ve now realised that the only way to beat this is to stop completely as one bet will lead to another and ultimately the Roulette will get me again somehow. I need to accept that the losses are gone and start to pay off what I can each month and get it down bit by bit.....easier said than done unfortunately but will certainly give it a good try. Anyway thanks for your support and for now I will not Gamble.

The good news is that I avoided the bookies, so I will definitely get to 5 day GF. However I just checked the goal bet that I do every Friday and Sod’s law it has already won, goals everywhere and the games haven’t even reached 70 mins yet. Wish i’d Never checked now, however I had to laugh cos it’s the normal mind games that this addiction wants to play. Well it hasn’t worked for today and I am still determined to give this up for good.

Exactly. That's what happens to suck you back in . Like your numbers on roulette coming in when you've got nowt on them . It's a trap pal

I know too well mate unfortunately. I wish i’d Just stuck to football bets then maybe I wouldn’t be in this mess. Roulette is the route to all evil and i’m Sure has crippled most people on this site. Anyway i’m Trying to not look back and trying to focus on the future, which is a life without gambling. Good luck on your battle also as i’m Sure we are pretty similar and on the same days GF.

Guess what, the other league I always do for a goal bet also would have won. Really hard to understand how this can happen, it’s like the gambling god teasing me so that I fold and go back my destructive ways. Luckily I signed up the GamStop so online access is not possible. I’m sure I could try something but tonight has given me the right hump as I know this has what has got me in the trouble in the past. I won’t gamble now and hopefully ever again. Time to really focus on what is important as I look as my kids pictures on the wall. It’s not too late to find myself again and be a good husband and Dad. That’s what I want more than anything.

Big day today to get to 7 days GF. Last day of the premiership and the temptation is there to gamble. Need to stay strong and think of the family.

Morning

Try keep busy to keep your mind of the football. I’m only on day 2 so we’ll done for hitting day 7! I’m worried about World Cup as I know they’ll be a pool at work, how do I get out of joining in?! I’ve always loved the banter of the whole thing at work.

Good luck and keep strong

Plumdoll

Thanks plumdoll, managed to get through the day GF. Was like a bear with a sore head all day though as the mind is constantly putting gambling thoughts in my brain and I start to convince myself that it’s the last game of the season so a little bet won’t hurt. Anyway another day down and hopefully I can continue my battle with success. I must admit i’m Pretty confident that I won’t bet on the World Cup because England are so bad there is nothing to get excited about.

8 days GF. Feeling good but staying focused, as I know that if I drop my guard I will be back to square one.

9 days GF....feeeling good today and in a better mood than i’ve Been in for a long time. Trying to forget about the losses as that’s done and won’t be coming back. Onwards and upwards For a gambling free life.

Day 10 and i’m In a really bad mood today. Ratty and depressed for no real reason. Probably the gambling debts in the back of my mind and the fact that they haven’t gone down yet as I haven’t been paid. I think the boredom is a main factor too. I usually go the gym but I did some ligament damage to my knee so can’t at the moment. The gym was always a good alternative in the past so I need to get back down there soon. I need to stay focused and remember what Gambiing has done to me, one step at a time I hope that the gambling urges will drain from my body and that with time my mood swings will cease. 5 years to pay off this debt is a long hard slog but i’m Determined to get there and i’m Sure that with every month that passes it will become easier and I will start to see the benefit of the debt reducing. Anyway off out tonight for a work drink up so need to stay focused as I am at my weakest and most vulnerable when drunk. No gambling today.

How's it going

Hi wittle71, thanks for your comment and concern. I appreciate that people are looking out for me. I’ve had a great night with work and am now standing at the bus stop looking at the bookies thinking f**k you. Life is so much better if you don’t even contemplate gambling. I’m still early days and have done 6 months before but it actually feels different this time, as though i’ve finally realise that this is it and i’ve Left no doors ajar....GamStop is a massive bonus..i’m Not sure if it does actually stop me accessing sites online but i’m Proud of the fact that I haven’t even tried. I hope you are doing well also, as j know that it’s easy to get consumed in your own issues.