I just want to let someone know what ive done

I Have always had a gambling issue but never admitted it. Losing a few hundred here or there playing poker. Which led to stealing from family cash reserves to pay rent with etc not proud of all that.

But i eventually confessed to my father which was so hard to do. after dipping into his business bank account (which i managed for him) for about 2 or 3k over a few months. Mainly after discovering football betting during lockdown.

He advised me to move back home and never gamble again, so i could save and  have a fresh start. Im 34 btw so pretty degrading. Women arnt interested because of it all etc etc.

I ended up investing my savings in bitcoin with his aproval, made 10x and was loving my chances of a new life. But then i started to dabble in futures, betting on bitcoin raising or dropping in value at up to 100x leverage

 This casued me to lose all 10k i had saved pretty quickly, it should be illegal. 

I was then enraged and chasing so somehow managed to borrow 25k in the space of 5 minutes from 5 lenders (never been in more than 3k debt before) And this went the same way. Within a day or two.

I feel worthless. I dont know if i can tell my father. He still thinks i have the original 10k.

My repayments come in at 1800 per month. I get paid 2000. Its sickening.

Any advice? Could I do something to reduce the debt perhaps. Im pretty much dead inside at this point. But id rather suffer in silence than make some terrible mistakes. Which i dont need to explain.