Apologies up front for what will probably be no more than a ramble!
Dont really know how it got to this stage, I used to feel I was in control of my gambling, now it controls me. I have a lovely family, fantastic partner yet I continually feel like I let them down by gambling away whatever we have, there is of course guilt as to what I have spent in the past, would even struggle to put a number on it but is thousands and thousands of pounds, there is the feeling of wanting to get some back but probably enough awareness that I cant do so
I am actually unsure what I want to say on here but just know I need to find a way to stop, I just dont know how to do so.
If anyone could and is willing to give some advice then it would be apreciated, I decided a the weekend there could be no more gambling, I am a whole 3 days into it and already feel under pressuere to start again
S
Hi Scott. Andy here nearly 3 years free and it aint been easy so forgive me for being blunt !
The first thing that hit me in your post was ''lovely family, fantastic partner''. If you keep it up they will be gone, not immediatialy but eventually when they cant take no more hurt.
Save them the hurt which will follow if you continue and yourself the pain of living in a bedsit with no money, no friends and an empty fridge.
3 days is great but go through the pain for the next week or 2 and when things get hard think of that bedsit, look around at what you have now and keep it. I have been there and it's not nice.
Keep it up. Andy
hi scott im in the same boat as you really i have been gambling for years and lost a lot of money doing it last yeah i had it with gambling and haveing no money so i starteded going to ga meeting with keeped me clean and bet free for a year and it was grate i plucked up the carage to tell my parter what had been happing and i so nealy lost her though it i had to beg her for a chance to change and told her i would never do it again today i broke that promess and found by self back in the bookmakers and lost a lot of money so i just need to start again and not let it happen again i wont be telling my parter though the fear of lossing her and what we have got. andy nice to read your post and i will also put that under my belt as anuther tool to help me 1 day at a time.
Day one for me too.... Been gambling for about three years on roulette machines. I love them. The buzz the rush of winning. It's this reason I won 1600 yesterday ... Then pumped it all in and the change out my pocket... I like u have a lovely family. Told the wife. She went berserk . But still with her. I've had these fresh start days once to many times . This has to be it. Your posts have already inspired me. Just need to be strong and never walk into a betting shop again.
Much love peeps. It hurts bad to lose and realise what a tool you've been. I /we must learn from this.
Appreciate you all taking the time to respond to my post
Andy - Sometimes brutal is what you need, I suppose I understand what you say but need to find a way to manage the knowledge of what could happen vs the overwhelming urges to gamble, thats what I am going to be trying to do, congratulations to you on 3 years of managing that, that's excellent
Dan / Badger, I cant say much to you both at this stage except to thankyou both for posting a reply, good luck to you both
I am going to start my recovery diary on here today, may help me put putting down in words my thoughts as I try to stay on the right path!
S
Hi Scott, It's not what COULD happen, It's what WILL happen ! Saying I will never gamble again is a huge hit on the brain so today is Thursday, Can you not have a gamble this weekend, that's all, starting now. Just do that for me, yourself, the ones you love and who love you too. Just till Monday and post back and together we will come up with plan B ! Will you try that ? Thanks.
Andy
Hi Scott,
I have just started on my journey to quitting gambling. For good this time. I quit back in 2012 and managed for 18 months but have recently found myself lured in again by temptation. Not my brightest move.
i found that the fear of losing everything that means something to me was an excellent incentive to never click that "bet" button again.
I also found that it was useful to ban myself from all gambling sites. I know this is all nothing new but its all i have.
I'm here if you want to chat. Good luck
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