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hi toad mate.

Sorry to hear about your mum....... xxx.....

good to have u back here fighting again....

hope to see u on chat again.

Adam

Posted by: @gambling_toad

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Hello all.

Hope all is well by the pond. Unfortunately i find myself back on my pad reflecting on things.

This year already has been the worst so far. I sadly lost my mum on 5th March 2024 so trying to come to terms with it. I have been trying to keep busy.

I had recently been back online after a 5 year gamstop period. With the death of mum i realise that i could gamble to escape life.

 

So today i have signed up for another 5 year ban.

I am coming 49 in April. I need to put blocks in place.

 

I hope to use this diary again and i hope all is well in your life.

Best wishes,

Toad

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Awww Adam,

Thank you for your kind words much appreciated.

Riiiiibettt

Mind you my humour has left me lately have to say.

A couple of years ago i was debt free dancing on my lily pad.

I was complacent and since collected credit cards and loans.

I wish you well in your journey Adam123 always great to hear from you.

I have to admit joining gamstop for 5 years was hard and i felt sad but i can't control my urges.

Had to be done.

Best wishes

Toad

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Mr toad glad you are back and fighting the good fight against the addiction. Sorry to hear you're mum passed away... That must hurt so my condolences to you and family. I hope you can put barriers in place to prevent any more damage financially... Life can hit us and it's up to us how we respond to it.

Keep on at it toad and you will be dancing again on the lilly pad I hope with a good sense of humour again.

Just for today I will not gamble, and remember not to leave the bath tap on before going out. 

Dave101

Sorry to here about  your mum.

And Congratulations on 5 years clean that's something  to be proud of.you can do it again .wish you all the best

Hello Dave101.

Thankyou for your kind remarks much appreciated and your joke made me laugh 🐒

Also Conor thank you although i only stopped online gambling for 5 years as i went to bookmakers.

I am now barred from my 4 local bookmakers

So this is day 3 no gambling.

Safe by the pond.

Best wishes

Toad 🐸

First of all, sending my condolences on your sad loss. 😥. Be proud of your 5 years g.f. I am in a similar position to you with the 5 year break but we go again, doing our best, to make life easier and be able to breath easier, without that terrible anxiety gambling can leave us with.

Take care toad and remember - “just for today, I will not gamble”. Sending prayers. 🙏.

Hello Pink Lady,

Thank you so very much for your kind comments.

The thing is i was with 2 online sites and had put deposit limits on. What did i do? Well i joined a new casino and lost money. It was then i knew i was out if control and gamstop was required.

I only thought i could rejoin casinos online with small bets. Not going to happen. I know  myself now and can't trust myself when it comes to gambling.

Thankfully i pay 80% of my wages for house bills. This has been going on about 9 years and needed.

I will be taking it one day at a time that is all i can do. I started gambling at 27 i am now coming 49 enough is enough. 

If i think back how much money and time was wasted gambling i would feel sick. I am thankfull for what i currently have but if i continue i will end up rock bottom.

Life is better on the lily pad away from casinos and i see a better sunnier day by the pond if i continue on the right path.

Best regards.

Toad🐸🐸🐸

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Good morning all,

The weekend is here I am feeling okay. Today no gambling just relaxing by the pond.

Toad of toad hall might do some work around the house. 

Every day without gambling is a good day.

Toad 🐸🐸🐸

Hello toad

I also am back. I am sorry to hear about your mum. I am 40 and started when i was 27. I always said it was a mugs game, but unfortunately i am of the nature that i like to try and find a way around things!

I find your attitude towards your perspectives very Inspiring. The way you said your on your lillypad away from the casinos.  I was feeling completely overwhelmed earlier and I read your post and felt uplifted.

Thank you

Xx 

Hello Pourme,

So glad you found my post uplifting and I hope things are on the up for you. If i can help one person I am happy. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

Thank you also for your kind comment regarding my mum. I looked up to mum and dad and very lucky to have a good upbringing.

The thing is i had a great childhood so no reason or excuse to gamble. I guess i just enjoyed gambling and winning. We all know in the long-term we never win.

Best wishes on your journey.

Toad🐸🐸🐸

Good morning.

Hope all is well by the pond. IT'S A NEW WEEK FULL OF NEW GOALS AND EXPECTATIONS SO LIVE YOUR LIFE 

Best wishes.

Toad

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Good morning all.

A new week with new goals good luck 🦄🦔

Toad🐸🐸🐸