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xboxgamer
(@j1hikne2zp)
Posts: 4
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Hi All , 

I joined here around this time last year. I had successfully removed myself from all gambling since November however yesterday I had a massive relapse. I felt awful.. the guilt I had was unreal I had blown 2K within a few hours trying to gain back. 

I was sweating , I couldn’t sleep. All though I haven’t blown it all and got into debt like last time this time felt worse. I decided to reach out to GamCare again suddenly I remembered I am not the only one. Money can return , I cannot. Today is another day.. the sun is shining bright here and everything doesn’t seem as bad as it did last night. 

 
Posted : 11th April 2024 1:16 pm
Peer Supporter Cabe
(@ozkecf6lus)
Posts: 13
 

Hi Xboxgamer,

I'm sorry to hear that you have had a difficult time with gambling harms.  It took me many attempts to stop gambling even after prolonged periods of time.  

I am so glad that you have reached out to GamCare again and we are here to try and help you as best we can.

It's good to hear that today is not as bad as last night and the sun is shining!

If you feel comfortable answering, can I just ask when you say you 'removed yourself from all gambling' - do you mean self-exclusion?

Sorry, I just want to be clear and understand your situation so I can possibly offer some further advice and signposting if you feel that is something you would like?

It's great to see the courage and resilience you have showed by reaching out to GamCare again so please be kind to yourself.

Thanks

Volunteer Peer Supporter Cabe

 
Posted : 11th April 2024 7:05 pm
xboxgamer
(@j1hikne2zp)
Posts: 4
Topic starter
 

Hi @ozkecf6lus

Thank you for responding. 
yes I self excluded myself , which helped me to stop gambling for months. However I used family members details to sign up again..  

 
Posted : 11th April 2024 8:24 pm
Peer Supporter Cabe
(@ozkecf6lus)
Posts: 13
 

Hi Xboxgamer,

No problem at all - I try to log on here as much as I can so please accept my apologies for the delay on responding.

That's good that you have self-excluded yourself.

Are your family members aware of your current struggles with gambling harms?

Please don't worry about answering if you don't feel comfortable.

Thanks

Volunteer Peer Supporter Cabe

 
Posted : 12th April 2024 8:20 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
Posts: 1749
 

Hi

You are not alone.

Like many people I did not stop gambling from day one.

Clean time can not be lost, even though we think we can.

I went to more meetings per week untill I became more stable in my self.

From each time I went back I got to understand what my emotional triggers were.

My emotional triggers were pains not healed, fears not reduced and faced, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, loneliness and boredom.

The longer I was in recovery the more things got done.

Sitting on my hands doing nothing was not healthy for me.

How much time and effort was I willing to invest in to my self and my well being..

Healing love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

 
Posted : 13th April 2024 4:04 pm
xboxgamer
(@j1hikne2zp)
Posts: 4
Topic starter
 

@ozkecf6lus 

 

no worries at all! Thanks for getting back to me again. 

My partner knows I have gambled in the past but believed I had stopped.He doesn’t know the extent of the amount of money I have lost. none of my family members are aware. I have told a close friend when I had no where to turn last November however she does not know I have had this dip. 
I have set up blocks on all my bank account cards something I have never done before which I think is a massive step towards stopping for good. Also deleted all the accounts I used using family members details. 

I am still trying to stay positive but I often find myself thinking of the money I should still have in my bank account if I didn’t go back to gambling 🙁 

 
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