Lost all my money. Feeling suicidal

How did things turn out? How are u today Steven?

Hi

everyrhing is going fine thanks, havnt had a bet since that stupid day, it was actually around 2 years to the day, i regularly go the races without betting, around people betting and ive even been to las vegas!!! I look back on it as a real lesson in life, it gets better with time like a death i suppose, cheers for asking

Great news sounds like your doing splendidly

well done, your story is inspirational as much as it is rather unique!

Hi Steven, hi everyone.

You guys are doing great not gambling and thinking forward. Honestly I can't get it out my head have lost so much money over the years. I'm 25 years old and have two kids wife etc. Luckily I have lost my own money and not taken any loans out, however back in the day I used to open up student overdrafts to cover my bad habits. Football bets live casino online gambling should be banned. Anyway I had stopped for a good couple of months and started on a clean slate. However recently I started off with £50 and eventually over the week went for £450 through online casino and football bets. Also going near to £0 and back to £450. I had cashed out and left £50 to play with. All of a sudden lost the £50 then kept cancelling my pending withdrawals. Ended up losing all my profits and started deposited my own amount. Currently £580 into my own money and looking like getting back to my old habits. I'm trying to stop but something keeps eating away at my head, honestly can't think of anything else other than getting my money back. Please help

Hi blueteam

Welcome to the forum and well done for seeking help for your gambling issues.

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Don't beat yourself up mate. I won 47k in two night playing blackjack. And lost the bride lot the day after. Just move on from it. Family is what means most and the people who care about us. As long as you've got money to live mate and your not in debt your in a better position than most. I know it's hard but forget about it. Just see it as a 20k lesson that you have learnt. I think about my losses but then think would I rather have my girlfriend and mum and dad etc??? You could give me a country and everything in it and I wouldn't sacrifice my loved ones.

Thanks for that mate, these forum are a great way of dealing with gambling as you usually feel alone and feel like ur the only stupid person doing this. But it is an addiction and honestly eats up ur life. Since I have been gambling I have lost all my hair and gained weight. I struggle to sit down and watch tv with the family. Have recently started doing more chores around the house but all that is on my mind is making that money back. Almost today has gone without betting but came close to joined a tipster to help me win my money back. It's the same thing every time chasing money. I had stopped for a while like good few months. I feel so guilty because I wished I used the money to buy my kids something or treat my wife. Times are hard but when it comes to gambling online my mind doesn't think it's money until u have lost loads and the following day is the worst realising how much u have lost. I don't have a great job just on standard wages. But my brain is so messed up and so on ......

Hi guys it won't let me create my own thread saying there is an error please try again later

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Hi blueteam

Welcome to the forum and well done for seeking help for your gambling issues.

I am wondering if you would like to start your own thread on the forum under the New members section so you can introduce yourself and connect to others. You will find a very supportive community of people here on the forum and I'm sure you will receive encouragement and advice so please do keep reading and posting.

You can also speak to one of our advisers on the helpline freephone 0808 8020 133, or on our netline. We can give you confidential advice, information and emotional support and also refer to free one-to-one counselling if that is something you would like to access.

Best wishes

Forum Admin

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All the very best to you

Gabriele

Steven, hello, if I may, I'd like to offer you a valuable piece of advice, don't allow yourself to have large sums of money easily available, at a touch of a button or cash easy to grab. You said you gambled 20k in 2 hours. I assumed it was online since it is unlikely you took 20k to the highstreet bookies in cash. I assume you have online banking, and an online bookies account. Here is what I suggest you do. Make it difficult or a hassle for you to access your online banking account. Write the password on a piece of paper, and then place that into a little metal cash box with a key, take the box and take it to another room and store it high above somewhere or below buried under a lot of stuff that would be a hassle to access. Do this with the online bookies account too, keep them in separate rooms. Even keep one box in your dad's room since you live with him. That way, you cannot easily access the dosh.

This was my problem, I had access to cash and online funds too easily. I had to make it so that it was difficult for me to get at, so that I couldn't do anything impulsively.

Hi steven, i won 7k from 5 quid on an online slot game. I took time off work nearly lost my job infact celebrating and blowing more of my own cash before i received any winnings.....made so many plans of holidays,cars the usual!,,it took me 3 hours to gamble it all and more back to the same site once it hit my account. I had boasted about it,made plans and almost lost my job.
In total with time off work and losses on top i lost over 10k......i never really recovered from that. Don't think i ever will. We are addicts. Our minds arnt capable of walking away. No ammount would ever be enough. Dont give them 10p. rebuild your 20k grit your teeth and hold your head up.

I’m New at all this but I’ll try anything to help me stop over the last 2 years it’s started to get more and more out of hand and have to try something

Wendy Woo wrote:

My partner was a gambler. He commited Suicide this year in May. He has destroyed my life completely broken my heart and my childrens. Please please get as much help as you can and fight this. I would not wish what he has put me through on anybody. He was fighting thi battle for 20 years and only admitted it in February after a failed suicide attempt. Unfortunately it took over. In May he lost £900 in 18 minutes in a casino and hung himself. He didnt come home. I had to identify his body in a police station the next day. We were getting married, I was supportng him even though he was stealing from me and lying constantly. This is the worst addiction as there are no obvious physical systems. Its a killer. Please dont put your family through what im going through. Get help and help yourselves to fight this xx

To Wendy,
Im so sorry for what you have been through. You and your family are in my heart and im sure your in the hearts of every person who has seen your post.
The main focus for us all should be family or friends who suffer the lies and deceit because of love for us.
Never forget this though,i beg you. We think of you every minute of every day. The reason we come here is for you.
Our intentions are the best,we love you all,we have lost our way thats all.
I guarantee your partner thought about you every second of every day.
He would be proud that you came here to help people like him. Your story will touch people and will help so many. Well done wendy. We all wish we had your courage and strength.