My Final thread

I’ve been here before and I sincerely this is the last time I do an introduction/start a diary.

I thought I was over gambling at the beginning of this year, then I got hooked in to the art of trading. I did reasonably well for a while.

Then the normal traits appeared. I lost £20 on a trade and I wanted ‘my money’ back so I bet/not traded on another goal to be scored in a football match. 

I tried Horse Racing, Football, Tennis, Cricket and Golf. All of them had success to varying degrees but once I lost on a trade I had I kept reverting to betting to get ‘my money’ back.

 I lost £230 on Saturday but thought I had a really easy way of getting that back.

Did I decide enough was enough at that point and give up? Of course not. I wanted my money back. I deposited a further £2,000, all of my wages, bar a few hundred. I won some back on some football games to get up to about £2,300.

I then spotted another opportunity to get all the way back upAgain, I was in with a chance of getting all my money back. Again, of course £ I had deposited on Sunday had all gone. 

I had to book two days off work. The only days I could get were today (Friday) and yesterday. I lay there depressed all day yesterday. Before something in me decided to try and cheer myself up with a few beers. There was football and tennis on. I transferred the last remaining funds in my bank.  I saw a couple of opportunities. 

Of course, he didn’t win. Another £700 gone. Just shy of £5,000 in one week that I had in my bank all gone.

As I mentioned I thought I was over this. Over the last 10 years I have been here twice before, can’t remember the usernames or e-mail addresses I used though. In the last 10 years I had set up a DMP with StepChange and with that and another loan of £15,000 I had to take out, my total debts were £73,000. I am down to having £8,000 left to pay. I am negotiating with my creditors to get full and final settlement offers. If I had kept my money/withdrew the £2,250 from b*****r I could have maybe cleared it all.

That said, the money has gone. I know that. I have signed up with GAMSTOP and I can no longer access any betting sites. I have deleted Flashscores and any other similar app from my phone and laptop history.

I’m not looking for sympathy. The reason for writing this was to say that Thursday 3^rd September was the last time I placed a bet. I hope to never place one again. I also hope that within 6 months I can pay off the remaining £8,000 I owe then move on to the ultimate goal of saving for a house for me and my family. The children deserve someone so much better than me.

I hope you all had a gamble free day today and for many years to come.