My gambling story

Okay so here i am, discussing about my story for the first time just on this platform, My mother is government employee and my father is a private employee, Also because my father lost job a few times which is why my mother earns more than my father, i am the single one of my parents and We sold our home from backward kind of area and came to the porsche area because of which my mother took home loan from the bank and also borrowed some of the money from our relatives, My parents wanted me to support them financially untill they can just cover up the borrowed money from the relatives and nothing much they ever asked for from me, So i started working in a company and its almost three months completed in the job, I had some serious urge to make money faster so that borrowed money could be paid off which is why i invested one month of my salary in some stocks, Stocks seems to be a slow growth for me so then i heard of stake, i went there and started gambling in casinos playing mines dice and other games and was really happy with them, told my cousin about this in happiness but i wanted to keep away my mom from this win news as i wanted to collect more and give them a surprise, but my cousin forgot and he told some of the win news as mistake, my mother reached to me smiled at me and said keep your win its okay you can tell me i will not take that from you that were her words, Again as i was doing night shift job so whenever i reach at home in the morning i play it with $20 or $30 but suddenly martingle made me a big loss that turned into $1000 loss as i kept depositing money because my mother already knew about the loss and i really didnot wanted to hurt her with the bad news of losing that money so chasing that was my biggest mistake, After that i stopped gambling but after 20 days i had some money and i was sitting idle also my friends were playing this so i again got encouraged by it and also because of some yt videos i started placing lower bets just of $10 again, was just thinking maybe i get near to the breakdwon slowly so i played after two or three days.

Left with no money so left the game, further after few days heard of sports betting and again got my salary placed a small bet and lost, again place a double bet and won, was happyy with the win but not enough because of the dopamine thing and because of the loss i already had, now i had some money so i decided that i will go with the minimum risk in sports. You know what the end of the story is about to come, i already applied for loan just in case if my parents ask me the money and today my mother asked me of money and i got message that the loan request is rejected, At yesterday night i was planning to split my loan amount into half, half goes to parent and with half of it could cover up the mess atleast of $1400, I just told my mother due to bank issue the payment could not be made today, But i think its god direction to not put me at debt as i am 25 right now so yeah need to lie to my parents about some stock market stuff that i long term invested the money and now i am not able to withdraw it till one year toll that will do my saving but a fixed amount of money and at the end of the year will give all of the money to my parents and will convert my lie into truth so no gambling from today whether it recover my loss or not i dont care, the hard work money always stays and i dont need to multiply it, its enough for me , THE END. i am an indian and that money really means alot here , Thanks bye bye.