Hi guys, found this forum and spent the last 3 hours reading people's stories. Seems I've not been alone with my problem the last few years, so many heartbreaking stories of despair, desperation, guilt and courage. I've been gambling online about 3 years, mainly football. It's been my little secret in my little world and I've hated every single second of it, but still couldn't stop. I got married last Valentine's Day to the girl of my dreams. I could not have been happier...then the gambling continued. Wasting money, borrowing, loans, lying. It all got so much and it broke us, about 2 months I confessed everything and she was heartbroken. From that day I said to myself I would do whatever it takes to not let her down and get better. I closed down everything, seemed help and confided in close family. I finally feel free. Counselling has helped and has made me see why I was doing it. I am desperately trying to save my marriage but I feel strong enough to beat the gambling.
Hi Dommyc,
Welcome to the Forum!
You have put many good steps in place to help you forward with this and it is good to hear that you feel strong and motivated.
I am glad that you have joined us here, too and I hope that you will find this Forum supportive and helpful on your journey.
You are not alone with this.
Kind wishes
Gabriele
Hi Dommy
im joe and im in just as serious situation , not married but have 2 small kids and throw all my money away , i cant stop i just cant bloody step been throw out , i have to act or just end it all , im so scared and upset im not sure how im putting on a brave face at work
Hi spraggy2014, thanks for your reply. Sorry to hear about your situation, especially as you have small children. I've not gambled since the day I told my wife, I'm holding it together for the sake of my marriage but fear it may be to late. It's hard to explain to somebody that doesn't gamble, such a selfish thing to do but have no control over it and can't stop. Are you seeing somebody? I'm finding it very helpful to just talk through everything. It's helping me seee things a lot clearer. Felt so trapped and alone in my own little world but now feel so much more free. Stay strong and do it for yourself and your young family.
Dom
Som I had the same feelings about ending it. I felt I had no option but it's amazing what talking and seeking help can do. You've already started with facing things and coming on here. If you need to chat I'm always free.
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