Hi everyoneÂ
Well this is my first time doing anything like this iv all ways gone to but some how managed to convince my self I don't need toÂ
Well after yet another heavy loss I finally admitted to my self this is a huge problem in my lifeÂ
I use to be able to set a limit and that was it but now I sink every thing I have into it chasing the lossÂ
I suffer from mental health issues and have a little voice called Gambow the gambling gremlin and he is very persasisve I won't go into numbers but he will tell me to bet bigger and bigger till its all goneÂ
I have a daughter and a wife who is basically carrying the family and it makes me so depressed, she knows and is very serportiveÂ
I'm yet to tell her that I have done it again this close to crimbo and her birth day but I will today when she is back from workÂ
Well sorry for going on
And thank you for time for reading thisÂ
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I totally understand your pain. Ive suffered 2 misscarriages in the last year. My dog nearly dying with meningitis. All these stresses proved too much for me and my gambling got worse and worse i was begging for money from family lying what it was being used for Â
On saturday i came clean to my wife. I have been feeling songuilty and ashamed since.Â
Thank you for sharing and welcome to the forum!
The first thing that comes to mind is what do you want to see happen now? Do you want to see a hard stop and get help with your economy and get the gamban in place? Do you want some therapy sessions and then figure it out?
Reason I am asking is that we normally don't have a plan when we start to look for help we just want the pain to go away and how ever you twist this you are always going to need a plan moving forward.
If you start by contacting the hotline here. They can guide you to the nearest help in your area. I think a conversation with a live human is a good place to start. They are non judgemental and will guide you in the next steps in your journey to something new.
Remember. Everyone has started where you are now. There is good help to be found but you need to work a bit on it to find the right match for you. The forum here is full of souls with similar stories and they will help you as well so you can find strength. I wish you well!
Best
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Thanks for your comments and I'm sorry to hear of your pain well done for finding the courage to tell your wife I hope your able to beat this I'm new to all this so not shore what to say I just know I can't do it alone family can help but they don't get why I do what I doÂ
I know how hard that is I spoke to mine today and she is happy I ha e finally managed to take the step in the right direction Â
I spoke to some one today on the phone and there calling me again tomorrow for my assessment I would like to try find my triggers so I can over come this addiction I have over come drugs and alcohol just need to kick this and cigarette but I want to lern how to do it healthy I don't want to replace one addiction for an otherÂ
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