Hi everyone,
Today i finally opened up on my gambling issues.
I feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders and i couldnt talk to anyone else about it so i made contact with Gamcare.
I have been gambling pretty badly online for the last year playing roulette and black jack and it had gotten to the point where i have taken out about 30k of loans and had debt on several credit cards. Then all of a sudden this week i had won enough to pay them all back and still have a bit of money in the bank but in one day (yesterday) i lost it all plus a little extra. I have been carrying the weight of this with me for a while and have been struggling with eating and sleeping morer recently.
I can jusy about get by with my pay as it is but anymore and then i'm not sure i could, so i made this effort to get in touch with people in the hope it will help me stop.
I am arranging councelling sessions as i feel like i need to get everything off my shoulders in the aim of being abel to stop gambling even for just one day. I am hoping this will be the start and i will be able to open up to my partner and family.
Anyway thats all i will say just now and hopefully eash day i will be able to come on and say that i have not been gamblibg.
Damian
Well done mate on making that call..I'm only day 13..but loads of wonderfull experts in here ago will guide you....one day at a time love ..take care xx
Thanks guys.....i just dont want to feel like this anymore.
1 day at a time as you say.
Hi Damian,
Yes Weldone on the admitting of your problem gambling. You have done the right thing by seeking help use all that is availible to you. The early days of recovery are the most difficult because your brain is still in denial or still trying to confince you one big win will solve all your problems. But you and I both know the reality is the money is never enough because the reality of this addiction is that it is very rarely about winning money. If it was you would have paid back all those people you owed money to but you did not. Hopefuly counselling will help you to explore the reasons behind your gambling and you will be able to take care of yourself better.
For the early days it is very advisable to put all the blocks in place that others have recommended as temptation could lure you in.
I hope you can get the help you need and have a great recovery.
Take care
Thanks for your message zulu13
Today has been a hard day with the guilt of it all and the odd thought off how I wish I could win it all back. But ive blocked all the sites and cut up the credit cards so no chance of that for today anyway.
Looking forward to getting to talk to someone on Friday as i feel i have so much to get out of me......would usually speak to my partner about everything and wish I could go to her. Hopefully that will come.
Hey damian,
I hid it from my wife for years .. managing it how i could.. though when I finally realised it's gone too far I opened up and told her the full story... while that was so hard it was the best thing I had done ... It was a sign of me coming clean .. no more hiding .. and i was able to give her the cards and start making progress.. It may me different for others so I can't say do it but if you find you can't turn anywhere else then letting the one you love know could be one of the greatest helps in beating this .. though thats your choice what works for one may not work for another..
Keep the days counting... 🙂
Kris
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