No control

Sorry to hear you have done what you have done don't be too hard on yourself just try and use this as a new low and harsh lesson you must learn from. When gambling it takes over all emotion and sensibility you do things you never thought you would. It's scary. You know you need help hopefully you'll get it here 

Thanks . Exactly yea . I’ve been here many times and another  relapse. You end up selling things you wanted to keep and then regret. I just hope I don’t look back and think what have I done. The best thing I can do is move on and get mentally stronger so this never happens again. This addiction takes you to such morally low places merely to survive. 

I can relate to all you say. I'm 50k in debt. I've defaulted on a mortgage and now my brother can't get a house because of what I've done. I've lied, stolen, the lot. I keep telling myself that I'm in control. Last month I got a 2.5k work bonus... Lasted a weekend! Today, I lost another £100 and told myself AGAIN this can't go on. The one thing I realised is that I can't control this so I've signed up to gamstop so that it controls me and stops me. It's a huge step. Tonight it feels good. Tomorrow when it's my first day in 4 years without gambling, I don't know how I'll feel. Still, least I won't loose any more. Good luck my friend. You can do this 

The chasing of losses brings out the very worst in all of us.  That stress, shame angst, and self-loathing can make you become a person you just never thought you would be. The repeat of that state can actually eradicate feelings of your mind if you do them enough times. You can see it in long-term drug addicts that they just feel "flat" ( No joy, no sadness, no thrills, no happiness) Just an empty space. They do feel Anger and disgust though. Those are the two last feelings that seem to hang on. At the Rockefeller center in the US, they have just operated in an electrode into the brain that stimulates the reward center and those few lucky heroin addicts that have tried the operations are finally feeling happy again.

The only thing we can do is wait and make small, small changes in behavior. This creates bigger changes down the road and importantly it is doable for anyone in any state of addiction. You can push yourself to make a tweak here and a tweak there to start changing the mechanics that you are stuck in. Start by getting out of bed on the opposite side tomorrow and see what that does. Make your bed before you leave the room. Decide that you have to have less computer time or phone time, not more. You need to reclaim what is yours by not being stuck in an impulse and believe me I know how dam impossible that feels but it IS doable.

Just decide that you can and you will.

Best

C

Does anyone on here actually have physical health problems through gambling removed link I've recently been having pains all over and went for tests at hospital everything seems OK doctor thinks it's stress. It's made me even more worried knowing that this is all cause my gambling am definitely stopping now I know my health is at major risk 

@banx1234 I believe that gambling sparked off my bipolar disorder. I can’t speak for general physical pains but if you have a genetic disorder or mental illness it does worsen it I believe. If the pain keeps happening I would strongly recommend trying different doctors so they catch what ever it may be.

Thanks I will do but I really do think its related to my gambling and anxiety,  am really going to get better and stick to healthy lifestyle see how better I feel. Madness to think we all do this daft thing that causes us nothing but misery really wish it was banned like in Spain 

Thats exactly all the symptoms I've been getting a was so worried that something major was wrong but had all tests and I'm fine. I was just wondering if it was just me. Well if that's not a wake up call I don't know what is am determ8ne to make my life better again and feel alive again