hi all. Got myself sorted with StepChange and stopped gambling around October but this weekend just gone I have relapsed. Oddly enough it seems to be a good thing and I’m wondering if anyone has had this.
So i won some money playing live poker. Then lost it and abit more on roulette on the way out. Why? I have no idea, I’ve never really played live roulette. My main problem was online where in all honesty it was just numbers on a screen as I’ve seen a lot of people say.
Anyway while playing roulette It dawned on me what I was doing and what I was losing not monetary wise but a 3 month gamble free streak (my first attempt).and also letting my mam down. I kinda hoped the spins lost just to kind of still home the point again, anyway they did lose and even though I’m sat here in a traffic jam I’m kind of glad I’ve relapsed now and not in like 12 months. Like the thought of ever playing again knocks me sick. It’s weird. It’s like this has hammered it home. Wondering if anyone else has experienced the same.
Still okay money wise for the month ahead and got a holiday approaching in March which im looking forward too
Anyway sorry for rambling (it’s a long traffic jam) and I thought I’d give this talking about it a go. Thanks MS
Hi, I'm in very simular situation, stopped in November did really well then gambled again on Friday, lost my full months wage in a couple of hours. Even though I'm gutted about the amount lost I'm glad it was a loss as it's reinforced my bad feeling toward gambling. I stupidly thought that because id gone so long without gambling id be better at controlling myself, I'd thought as soon as I got a little win id leave but I never got a little win untill id already spent hundreds so I was chasing My money back. At least I know now that no matter how much time I can go gamble free that I'll never be able to control myself once I've started. Another expensive lesson learned!
Hi There,
Welcome to the forum.
I can't imagine anyone here (even they guys who are now years gamble-free) has gone through recovery without at least one 'blip'. The important thing is that a 'blip' doesn't become a full-blown relapse and you don't fall back into old patterns.
At the risk of sounding like a wannabe-psychologist, try and work out what triggered this instance of gambling and work out how to block that going forward. Exclude yourself from the online casino too, yes there are hundreds out there but having to sign up for a new one buys you time to reconsider your actions. Better still, get some blocking software on your computer/devices.
Good luck and all the best with your recovery, make this time the last time.
Phil
Cheers for both responses. Yea I can’t get on any online casino without having to do a s**t load of messing around which tbh i Can’t be arsed doing haha. Plus over the last 3 month the thought of online roulette etc genuinely hasn’t entered my head once. Since stopping it’s been absolute no thought.
This was a live casino which I’ve never really played roulette in because the thought of handing over in cash never appealed to me. Like I said I genuinely think I did this to prove a point to myself that it is absolutely pointless. I can remember hoping the spins lost. Weird but satisfying because now I genuinely believe in well Past it. Odd feeling.
The fun has stopped well I guess we’re both starting again from the same point so hopefully both succeed. Drop a message on here if you need out as I guess we will both be going through the same things at roughly the same time.
Thanks again.
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