Rock bottom.

2 weeks today !

Buzzing ! feeling good 🙂

Hi Andrew, so sorry to hear about your break up,I too was in a similar situation to you,even tho I have a long way to go to be gamble free I did tell my fiancГ©e just before last Christmas about my gambling addiction. He was fantastic and very supportive and didn't react half as much as I thought he would. I have just had a lapse but I'm right back in the saddle and going to beat this demon .

Hi Liggypops, that's great fair play to your partner, glad your determined to beat this, we can do it !!

Day 19.

Very tough day yesterday. Friday/Saturday kept myself busy, saw my friends, really enjoyed it.

Yesterday I was alone, hungover, house completely empty, parents away, I had zero blocks in my way of strolling down the bookies and 'cheering myself up', I've backed Dustin Johnson to win the golf about 25 times, really thought about lumping.

Turns out I didn't (probably why he won). I could be richer, but I really thought about the people I had let down recently and chose not to bet, I done housework, washing, cleaning, tidying and some reading, had a really productive day.

Just hope all these small victories can add up to winning the war and theres a decent life at the end of the tunnel, have a good week people !!

good to see you still posting and using it as a diary Andrew, keep up the good work hope its starting to look abit brighter for you.

Hi Andrew, almost 3 weeks! Amazing that you've stayed gamble free especially during a tough time.

Like you I've bet on Dustin Johnson for every golf major I can remember in past 3 or 4 years. To be fair I probably have had a return from all of that since he's come so close so often - each way bets.

Anyway, it's just a stark reminder of how gambling has us well as truly beaten. For him to then win after we've both stopped is telling us something. We're better off wthout the 'what if's' etc instead just focussing on what we can control. If we don't gamble then we win everyday.

Keep up the good work mate.

Hi Tommy ! thanks mate ! well done on 65 that's fantastic !

yes very true, I just need to believe had I caved in and backed him, him wouldn't of won, and look at all the money I'm saving overall and how happy I'm becoming. So many stories of when I followed certain patterns and then second I stop they win, I followed the same horse for around a dozen runs, the day I got distracted and missed it he strolled in at 25/1 ha. We can't beat the bookies, definitely the right thing to do to wave the white flag and better ourselves, keep up the good work too !!

Hello Tommy,

Glad to hear that things are improving - that you are improving things for you - but I'm not keen on your previous post. You imply that some combination of luck, skill and judgement are involved in gambling. Actually, you were betting on random outcomes because you have an addiction to the process of placing a bet. Sorry but it's not the case that others are winning where you didn't. Everyone loses apart from the bookies.

BW,

CW

Thanks CW, yes things are improving. Not really sure what you are picking at here, I did start writing a longwinded response/rant but that wouldn't do any of us any good. It would just turn into a ping pong match on someone else's recovery diary.

I was just using it as an example of how we are better off without gambling as it plays mind games with us. If we don't gamble in the first place then we have control of the outcome hence why I said 'If we don't gamble then we win everyday'.

Hi CW, thanks for your post, yes everyone loses apart from the bookies.

I found Tommy's post another good way of thinking against the bookies, my reply was very similar so apologies if you think it comes across wrong to others. But I can relate to it and it helps us to think of no-gambling. It's saying avoid the mind games and clear off away from the bookies, It's another layer of - we lose when we bet, so don't bet. Our favourite outcomes may well happen from time to time, everyone has a favourite colour, favourite friend, favourite golfer, but we don't need gambling to enhance that now. We are free and going to enjoy everything without the trap of gambling to ruin our lives.

We're winning everyday we don't bet 🙂

Good upbeat post Andrew! You are doing great - let's keep it up together 🙂

28 days / 4 weeks.

I am proud of myself, but very down today. My ex gave her engagement ring back to me, was very ice cold and angry and said never speak to me ever again.

So I've won this battle so far but lost the war. Too little too late.

I am obviously going to continue to be gamble free ! as gambling has had a massive part of this and I need to hate it for life. But I've changed too late and feel c**P.

Onwards and upwards.

Andrew

It is no surprise that you feel down about your girlfriend and the cold way it ended but maybe that is the way things are meant to be at the moment. Relationships are always put to the test by these things and it is time like this that you find out who will actually stick by you through thick and thin. In a way it is good that your girlfriend was honest enough to say she could not do this rather than you both struggling on an neither being happy. You seem to be recovering well and now you can just concentrate on you and your family to make things even better. You are young and have plenty of time to make a good life and I hope you find a partner that can you can share your problem with and who will maybe help you with your recovery. Meanwhile keep up the positive attitude.

Andrew27 wrote:

28 days / 4 weeks.

I am proud of myself, but very down today. My ex gave her engagement ring back to me, was very ice cold and angry and said never speak to me ever again.

So I've won this battle so far but lost the war. Too little too late.

I am obviously going to continue to be gamble free ! as gambling has had a massive part of this and I need to hate it for life. But I've changed too late and feel c**P.

Onwards and upwards.

Nothing obvious about staying gamble free Andrew but I hope in your case that's as close to a truth as we can get. Tri