I don't know how I got to this place in my life, I am surrounded by amazing family, lovely friends and a loving partner. I have lost all sense of control and have to finally admit again that I have no control over my actions when gambling is accessible to me. I find myself once again in the hideous space between spending every penny and confessing that once again I have failed. Although this time there's even more debt unpaid, I feel unwell in my mind, the constant mask I have on at work where no1 knows what's going on inside my mind is mentally so draining to keep up. Just hours ago I would of been able to keep this up for another month..hours later all the winnings spent..but would that of helped me? Probably not. Sorry for the rambling post. I have been to ga before and intend to start again I just needed to get this out of my mind as the loneliness I am feeling right now is deafening
Morning Mate
Your not alone here , 99% of forum memebers here (excluding friends and family) have been where you are , the gambling consums your mind and before you know it you have lost a significant amount of money , 2016 was a terrible year for me and learning the hard way how destructive this addiction can be , its a modern day mental killer as money seems to rule the world and gambling firms can tempt ppl into "free money " when in reality they are the ones getting our money for free very little costs to these slots, roulette card games ,
you feel lonely and unwell as you just been hit again hard with the chase but the dust will settle in next few days and as you mentioned you do have good family and friends which is more than some can say , gambling will threaten them if we keep going uncontrollable
stop now and re build it is a wonderful world and life if we can get through all the krap , post evey day we have a good chat and motivate each other
joe
Looking at your previous posts your family are aware of the problem?
First step is to tell them again. Hard but not as hard and corrosive as carrying the secret around with you any longer. Get them to help you with any and every block that will stop you acting on impulse when the urge strikes starting with looking after your finances. Don't just intend to go to GA again. Make it a priority.
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