Hi, I posted on here around about 2 years ago about my gambling problem.
I'd hit rock bottom at that time, my life was in a complete mess. I was at the brink of taking my own life through borrowing money for gambling.
I swore to myself that I'd never gamble again because of the distress I put my family through.
Well the gambling all started again around about 6 months ago. I swore to myself I'd just spend what I could afford and no more.Tonight I just blew 60.00 (I know that doesn't seem a lot) but to me it is. I just feel so ashamed, It's like i can't shake off the need to gamble. once I loose, I just feel the need to put more in to try and chase my money back. I was 100 up tonight on a site but I couldn't withdraw it,I had to play until every last penny was gone. Then the guilt kicks in, I thought to myself just think what you could have bought with that money. Will i ever learn???!!!
I'm due to start uni in September and I'm really worried about being alone more and having more time to gamble. I'm scared that I'll just lose control.
All my family and friends still think I'm gamble free and they are so proud of me. If only they knew the truth 🙁
Hi Michelle. You've done the right thing by coming on here. There are so many people willing to give you sound advice and encourage you.
We've all or are in the exact same position as you. You're not alone. don't let this slip(because that's all it is) drag you back down again. You know that you'll never win. As i've heard on here several times. You can't win because you can't stop.
I'm on to day 6 of being gambling free now and i can honestly say i can't remember the last time i've felt so positive. I've had enough of the lies, the secrecy and of this f****ng disease robbing me of my life. The ONLY way a CG can win is by not gambling. I really hope you can see last night as the first day of the rest of your life. I and the rest of the people using this site will be rooting for you. Take all the advice you can get from the people on here that have gone through exactly what you are going through. I really hope you, i and everyone on here can take our lives back. The life we were meant to lead. good luck
Davie
Good reply Davie, says everything what I would have put!!
Michelle... I know its far from easy and I wish you all the best, today is day 9 for me, almost double figures!! Would be amazing to get to triple figures gamble free.
Try setting little targets; even if its 'I will not gamble today'. The days will soon add up and hopefully the urges will fade a little.
Mark
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