I can't believe that I am writing this yet again, but I am having to quit gambling for a third time in my life.
The first two attempts were succesful (18 months and 6 months respectively) although not succesful enough, as here I am again. I have been gambling for around 7 or 8 years now. I managed to give up in May 2013 for 18 months and again in 2015 for 6 months. However I started again at the back end of last year and the results have been disgustingly bad. I have racked up almost £20k in debts (including interest) which I am steadily paying off, I don't sleep properly 2/3 nights of the week. I won £8k in April, but have managed to blow half on holidays and the other half to casinos/bookmakers.
Roulette machines (particularly in w**********l) appeal to be so much and even writing this now I feel like going to have "One Last Crack" at winning something, especially now that I am this far gone.
I really hope that I can stop gambling again and get that monkey off my back. I have a great family, bunch of friends, girlfriend, job etc. I just want to shake this horrible disease off.
Thank you.
You are not alone Louis this disease effects so many people. You have shown you can give up for large periods of time that shows you can do this. Really hope it all works out for you.
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Hiya mate- hope this finds you well
Well done for posting, its a terrible addiction that i think we always have to have our guard up against and not get complacent when we think we have beaten it. I have had so many relapses and they are always worse time and again.
This forum is full of people who understand your pain frustration anxiety etc- we all want to help eachother. Society doesnt seem to really understand but so many people who have gone through the same thing absolutely do. Stay strong- ure not a bad person you are just wired up a certain way. You just have to change that wireing and way of thinking. Its never too late, you can still have all the things you want and one day you will walk past the bookies with a self satisfied smug grin on your face that you have overcome the hardest thing to ever happen to you.
I hold onto thoughts of the future like these. It seems to help
You say you quit for 18 months, so lets make this next one 2 years. Thats the first hurdle. Aim for that then go from there. Each day as it comes one step at a time drag yourself out of your hell.
Fight or flight time my friend
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