Stopping before it’s too late

Hi everyone, 

this is my first post. I’ve gambled for a few years now on and off, it’s started small on fruit machines in the pub put £5 in and win £50 you know how it starts you just pump more money in then you start going to betting shops and increasing bets on the machines. Then your introduced to online gambling buy in bonuses win a nice little bit of money but put it all back. Got on top of that blocked from every site possible to stop the temptation. All goes away for a few years and don’t even bother with gambling at all. Then life throws a few hurdles at me and I end up getting depression and anxiety having regular panic attacks and generally just feeling terrible. Then it starts again back in the bookies put a little in and win plenty and you think oh this is easy money and it’s making me feel good. Anxiety and panic attacks stop maybe this is my cure! Sacrifice a bit of money instead of feeling c**P all the time, how wrong was I! I’m not in any physical debt with my gambling I just waste any surplus money me and my wife have. I have this buzz when I’m about to gamble and when I’m doing it.  the voice in my head is constantly telling me don’t do it, you don’t need to but I can’t curb that temptation to do it. I’ve excluded my self from all the local betting shops but I still find ways to gamble weather it be at local amusements or pubs with slot machines, if I see a fruit machine I feel I have to go on it. I don’t want to gamble I hate it, I want to stop before it’s too late and if it does get out of control and I loose something. I feel like an absolute failure to myself and family when I do it, but I feel it’s a very tricky thing to get out of. It’s to much to write to really explain everything in depth. All I want to know really is there anyone out there that has managed to stop before a bit of fun then turned serious? 
Thank you.