Hi everyone, I joined the forum last week.
I've seen so many great posts and have taken some pretty great support from members posts here.
I just wondered....I was free from gambling for 3 months after years of gambling, then I had a slip last month after some bad news..typical of me, the emotional gambler! Not that it's an excuse...anyway on that lapse I won thousands...4 thousand to be precise.
I foolishly against by better will, put it all back in bit by soul destroying bit.
I've stayed gambling free for 5 days now and intend on trying really hard to keep it that way! I realise and I accept that I can never gamble again full stop. I know I need to look more at my triggers and see what preventative methods I maybe haven't tried before.
The thing is I am crucifying myself over the money I lost and moreover the money I won and then put back again...
Who wins 4k, only to gamble it all back within weeks...
Am I missing something here. It's bad enough I gambled and yes I know as part of this horrible addiction we win and then we lose and the cylce continues until we draw a line...
but its like my brain won't let go and I can't stop beating myself up today...I feel so guilty and so very very stupid of the good that I could have done with that money...
I remember winning it and thinking I would not have another slip, that I would make some good come out of the toxicity of gambling and treat it as a going away from gambling gift...that probably sounds wrong but then I went and lost it all. I feel like nobody else would do that....yet I have heard some of the stories of what's happened to other people who gamble...
Can someone give me some inkling to what this is about in my head today...is this part of my brain trying to trick me into going back to see can I chase the money back or is it just a normal process after losing so much...I'm really confused and I hope this post makes sense.
I am exactly the same cant let go of the fortune I've just lost we're going on holiday in two months and just put a bid in to buy a house last week I could have paid the holiday off and given my partner all the spending money we needed now I'm broke again and owe my next four half decent wages out not a button to live on but I need to just get on with it as I always do and forget it because its gone now the only way to try to get it back is to gamble and I'm certainly not going there again just forget about it the more you dwel the more likely you are to gamble good look
Thank you both very much for your replies, I really appreciate them and they have helped a lot, and Gan Eagla you're so right when you say that the only way you can win is to stop gambling.
Thanks again guys.
Hey alannah how r you?
Hi Allanah,
I hope you are still managing to stay away from gambling. I too had a big win (£11k) and lost most of it. Since my big loss last year I carried on playing online slots in the hope of getting that big win back. I did win hundreds/thousands several times and did manage to withdraw some of my winnings. I also won over £2000 twice and bet the whole lot back again.
It was after a period of prolonged losses and a weekend of excessive gambling that I can to my senses. I managed 12 days before a relapse where I lost another £900 and since then I haven't gambled. I still can't believe the £900 I wasted after 12 days gamble free.
So, I totally understand where you are coming from. Losing the £4000 must be gutting but you can't get it back and if you try to chase it you will end up spending more and more and no doubt feel worse.
Hope you are managing to stay gamble free 🙂
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